Foreword

There is neither a structure nor a texture to this blog. The subject matter can be anything and everything under the sky that I feel about at any given point that I happen to sit and blog rambling about everything in general. My thoughts and views are basically influenced by what I read, hear, gather, and ponder... if there is any copyright violation which I have not duly acknowledged, kindly let me know.

My world comprises of LO the little one, OA the other adult at home, kiddo the brother :)

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Dec 7, 2006

Dhak, Dhak.. Dhak, Dhak...

This is my last post pre-marraige... with the wedding date just a week away, yup... exactly a week, I am quite tensed up. Just cant believe how time just flew away.. with a tummy full of butterflies and a lot of hopes and fears, mixed feelings... that queasy feeling, that restlessness, that getting touchy about every little thing, with tears always beneath the eyelids just waiting to trickle down ...... aaaaaaawwwwwww... do I want this to end soon and enter the new life as soon as possible and get over with it or do I want this time to stay like this for a while and enjoy being single and enjoy the long-distace relationship for a while.. phew..... just cant make up my mind... Is it natural... well I dont know.. just dont know... all i can say is my dil goes.. dhak, dhak.. dhak, dhak... dhak, dhak... each passing moment.

Catch you guys after my life settles a bit... just pray from me, pray that all goes well and the transition from Ms. to Mrs. goes smoothly...

Nov 29, 2006

Do You Know?????

This is yet another forward. If you have not come across it earlier, just try to answer them, even though we hear these day in and day out, I did not know most of them.. how about you??

1. What programming language is GOOGLE developed in?

2. What is the expansion of YAHOO?

3. What is the expansion of ADIDAS?

4. Expansion of Star as in Star TV Network?

5. What is expansion of "ICICI?"

6. What does "baker's dozen" signify?

7. The 1984-85 season. 2nd ODI between India and Pakistan at Sialkot- India
210/3 with Vengsarkar 94*. Match abandoned. Why?

8. Who is the only man to have written the National Anthems for two

different countries?

9. From what four word ex-pression does the word `goodbye` derive?

10. How was Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu better known?

11. Name the only other country to have got independence on Aug 15th?

12. Why was James Bond Associated with the Number 007?

13. Who faced the first ball in the first ever ODI cricket match .

14.Which cricketer played for South Africa before it was banned from

international cricket and later represented Zimbabwe ?

15. The faces of which four Presidents are carved at Mt.Rushmore?

16. Which is the only country that is surrounded from all sides by only one

country (other than Vatican )?

17. Which is the only sport which is not allowed to play left handed?

Of course, we do get the answers referring google, but just try them.. and needless to say, i will post the answers some time later :-))

OKay guys... I understand you are very busy to check out google but would like to know the answers... here I go.

Answers
1. Google is written in Asynchronous java-script and XML, or its acronym
Ajax.

2. Yet Another Hierarchy of Officious Oracle

3. ADIDAS- All Day I Dream About Sports

4. Satellite Television Asian Region

5. Industrial Credit and Investments Corporation of India

6. A bakers dozen consists of 13 items - 1 more than the items in a normal
dozen

7. That match was abandoned after people heard the news of Indira Gandhi
being
killed.

8. Rabindranath Tagore who wrote national anthem for two different countries
one is our National anthem and another one is for Bangladesh-( Amar Sonar
Bangla)

9. Goodbye comes from the ex-pression: god be with you.

10. Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu is none other than Mother Teresa.

11. South Korea.

12. Because 007 is the ISD code for Russia (or the USSR, as it was known
during the cold war)

13. Geoffrey Boycott

14. John Traicos

15. George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, Theodore Roosevelt, and Abraham
Lincoln

16. Lesotho surrounded from all sides by South Africa.

17. Polo.

Nov 28, 2006

Word Wars... Classy Insults :)

This came in as a forward full of witty, whacky, and caustic remarks... had fun reading it, I dont think I can ever be so blunt putting across my views though..

I just couldnt resist posting it.. :-).


"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire."
-- Winston Churchill

"A modest little person, with much to be modest about." -- Winston Churchill

"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure."
-- Clarence Darrow

"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the dictionary."
-- William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway)

"Poor Faulkner. Does he really think big emotions come from big words?" -- Ernest Hemingway (about William Faulkner)

"Thank you for sending me a copy of your book; I'll waste no time reading it."
-- Moses Hadas

"He can compress the most words into the smallest idea of any man I know."-- Abraham Lincoln

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it."-- Groucho Marx

"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it." -- Mark Twain

"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends." -- Oscar Wilde


"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play, bring a friend... if you have one."
-- George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill

"Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second night...if there is one."-- Winston Churchill, in response

"I feel so miserable without you, it's almost like having you here."
-- Stephen Bishop

"He is a self-made man and worships his creator."-- John Bright

"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial." -- Irvin S. Cobb

"He is not only dull himself, he is the cause of dullness in others."-- Samuel Johnson

"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." -- Paul Keating

"He had delusions of adequacy."
-- Walter Kerr

"There's nothing wrong with you that reincarnation won't cure."
-- Jack E. Leonard

"He has the attention span of a lightning bolt." -- Robert Redford

"They never open their mouths without subtracting from the sum of human knowledge."
-- Thomas Brackett Reed

"He inherited some good instincts from his Quaker forebears, but by diligent hard work, he overcame them."
-- James Reston (about Richard Nixon)

"In order to avoid being called a flirt, she always yielded easily." -- Charles, Count Talleyrand

"He loves nature in spite of what it did to him." -- Forrest Tucker

"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?"-- Mark Twain

"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork."
-- Mae West

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go."
-- Oscar Wilde

"He uses statistics as a drunken man uses lamp-posts...
for support rather than illumination."
-- Andrew Lang (1844-1912)

"He has Van Gogh's ear for music."
-- Billy Wilder

"Sir, if you were my husband, I'd give you poison." (Member of Parliament to Winston Churchill)
"Madam, if I were your husband, I'd take it." (His response)

Nov 20, 2006

So True...

Quotable Quotes...
True treasures experienced and voiced years ago. They hold good even today and are worth cherishing and remembering every once in a while. Sometimes when I read them, I feel they are so apt to the situation I am in at that point. Kind of gives me reassurance that people have been there before and come out victorious, it is just a matter of time and that particular moment will surely pass, learn from that moment and never let that affect your future.

Adversity is like a strong wind. It tears away from us all but the things that cannot be torn, so that we see ourselves as we really are.
-Arthur Golden (Memoirs of a Geisha)

Stress is an ignorant state, it believes that everything is an emergency.
-Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind.


When my mind feels blank and empty, I just pick up
Wisdom or Reader's Digest
my fav books and whichever edition it is or however old it is, it never fails to relieve me of my tension. So much of knowledge just packed in a few pages imparting wisdom and knowledge...

Assumptions are the termites of the relationships.
-Henry Winkler.

Half of the harm that is done in the world is due to people who want to feel important.
- T.S. Eliot


How true it is to say that books are our best friends, they never leave us nor bother us. They show us the right path without actually listening to us or being judgmental. Choosing the book to read is vital and once you pick what is right for you, you are stuck with it for life and it is always a give-give and take-take relation from then on..

Thank you sooooo much God for these small mercies and the greatest treasures.

It takes considerable knowledge just to realize the extent of our ignorance.
-Thomas Sowell, Creators Syndicate

Nov 17, 2006

Good One..

This one was forwarded by Aysha to me and needless to say it touched me deeply and here it goes...


You Are Wonderful


The following story captured my heart. It happened several years ago in the Paris opera house. A famous singer had been contracted to sing, and ticket sales were booming. In fact, the night of the concert found the house packed and every ticket sold.

The feeling of anticipation and excitement was in the air as the house manager took the stage and said, Ladies and gentlemen, thank you for your enthusiastic support. I am afraid that due to illness, the man whom you've all come to hear will not be performing tonight. However, we have found a suitable substitute we hope will provide you with comparable entertainment. The crowd groaned in disappointment and failed to hear the announcer mention the stand-in's name. The environment turned from excitement to frustration.

The stand-in performer gave the performance everything he had. When he had finished, there was nothing but an uncomfortable silence. No one applauded. Suddenly, from the balcony, a little boy stood up and shouted, Daddy, I think you are wonderful! The crowd broke into thunderous applause.

We all need people in our Lives who are willing to stand up once in a while and say, I think you are wonderful.


And at times others are expecting this from you, Are you telling them how wonderful they are?

Nov 6, 2006

Bacckkk

Thanks for missing me guys... ;-)... well on second thoughts... did you??????

I missed you too... break was from blogging but life had been a little too hectic... with the wedding date ticking closer, prep has started full-fledged and I seem to be doing everything and nothing at the same time. Now, dont ask me how can that be :-)).. it just is.

One great thing had been meeting caps in her own house and you bet that was one of the filling moments in my life..

Will try to post stuff here and there but surely hop around a lot :-).

Nov 3, 2006

Tag, Tag, Tag

I have been tagged by HTBM.. This one has been long pending... Thanks for tagging me and sorry for the delay.

The rules of the blog.. cool and simple.. fill it and pass it on...


3 Smells I love:
1. Smell of rain. 2. Smell of fresh paint and petrol. 3. Smell after pooja, flowers, agarbathi, diya, dhoop and all..

3 Smells I hate:
1. Sweat. 2. heavy perfume users. 3. tyre or plastic burning.

3 Jobs that I have had in my life:
1. Trainer. 2. Proofreader. 3. TL.

3 Movies that I could watch over and over:
Geetanjali (nagarjuna and Anjali as a kid). Home Alone, Beethoven, all the kid movies (movies with kids in them).. sadly, nothing recently that makes me want to watch it time and again.


3 Fond memories:
1. My time with Amma and taata
2. Our Aptech days
3. Amma's last trip to my place, those 2 months were the best.

3 Jobs I would love to have:
1. Creative head of an advertising agency. 2. Movie Making/critic. 3. Toy designer/anything to do with kids.

3 Things I like to do:
1. Enjoy the nature in the early hours.
2. Spend time with friends.
3. Doing something for the needy.

3 Of my favorite foods:
1. Anything home cooked.. 2. Sunnundalu (an Andhra delicacy) 3. Jalebi... yummmm...

3 Places I would like to be right now:
1. Heaven (with amma) 2. Atlanta 3. Australia.

3 Things that make me cry:
1. The thought that Amma is not with me in person any more.
2. Seeing the suffering of the people.
3. Anger.

Now the toughest part...

I tag..
Caps
Aysha
Anand
Pri
Lalita.

Oct 18, 2006

Breeeaaaak

Thanks for the concern buddy, I am perfectly alright and in Bangalore taking a break from work at home :-).

Not able to blog as I have too many things to take care of... will be back soon with a bang... until then, will keep hopping your sites as and when I can manage to sneak into the net. :-).. happy Diwali, ramadan.. and most of all... "happy every single day" to all of you.

Oct 10, 2006

A Good One



People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!


LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Oct 4, 2006

Puzzle Time..

Pebble Story

Many years ago, in a small Indian village, a farmer had the misfortune of owing a large sum of money to a village moneylender. The moneylender, who was old and ugly, fancied the farmer's beautiful daughter. So, he proposed a bargain. He said he would forgo the farmer's debt if he could marry his daughter. Both the farmer and his daughter were horrified by the proposal. So, the cunning moneylender suggested that they let providence decide the matter.

He told them that he would put a black pebble and a white pebble into an empty money bag. then the girl would have to pick one pebble from the bag. If she picked the black pebble, she would become his wife and her father's debt would be forgiven. If she picked the white pebble, her father need not repay the debt and she need not marry him either. But if she refused to pick a pebble, her father would be thrown into jail. They were standing on a pebble strewn path in the farmer's field. As they talked, the moneylender bent over to pick up two pebbles. As he picked them up, the sharp-eyed girl noticed that he had picked up two black pebbles and put them into the bag. Now, imagine you were standing in the field. What would you have done if you were the girl? If you had to advise her, what would have told her?

Careful analysis would produce three possibilities
1. The girl should refuse to take a pebble.
2. The girl should show that there were two black pebbles in the bag and expose the money-lender as a cheat.
3. The girl should pick a black pebble and sacrifice herself in order to save her father from his debt and imprisonment.

Take a moment to ponder over the story. The above story is used with the hope that it will make us appreciate the difference between lateral and logical thinking. The girl's dilemma cannot be solved with traditional logical thinking. Think of the consequences if she chooses the above logical answers.

What would you recommend to the Girl to do?

If you already know this, play sport and if you dont know give it a try....

Good luck!!!

Bingo.. Shilpa got it right first... you try it on your own and go to the comment section only after you try..

Oct 3, 2006

Tag-o-Mania :-)

I have been tagged by Itching to Write for 9 wierd things about self and Shilpa to list out 8 things about myself. Thank you both of you for finding me tag-worthy :-). Am combining both of them and here I go..

The rules of tag, as I learn and understand are
Mention the name of the person who tagged you. Take up the tag and pass it on to 6 others and also leave a comment in their blogs notifying the same.

Heeehaa.. so this is going to be me ga-ga'ing no end about I, Me, Myself.. in a lengthy tag-o-blog. So, get ready for the ultimate torture of the day :-).

Weird!!!! That must be my second name, 'cos I had been told time and again that most of the things I do are wierd. Come to think of it, I consider not being weird wierd actually :-)).

I cant recollect faces. I remember people and I can recognize them in an instant with their names as well but I just cant recollect their faces by closing my eyes. There was this person with a beard in my office, who used to sit in the cubicle next to mine. I used to see him regularly and talk too but once when someone asked if he had a beard, I was total blank...

I Love Screaming. Yup, much to the discomfort of the people around me, I just love to scream and make crazy noises without any reason. When I am alone, reading, watching TV, etc., , I suddenly get these bouts.. making strange noises leaving people puzzled if I am actually crazy and I actually love screaming out the songs very out-of-tune types :-).

I just cant stop laughing at times. I get tears even when I laugh and it is very difficult to stop laughing some times. I laugh so hard that I end up holding my stomach, wiping my tears much the embarrasment of the other person at whose expense I do the laughing ;-).

I have a split personality. Scary.. uggghhh... not really so :-). For those who are close to me, I am this nonstop chatterbox whose jaws hurt if I remain silent for some time whereas for a few, I am a Miss. No-Nonsense, To-The-Point person... Suppose if the two happen to be acquaintances, they would be wondering if they are discussing about the same person.

Weird Sleep Posture. This is really sush-specific I guess and I dont really know how I got it but I just cant sleep well until I sandwich my head between two pillows, closing both the ears, i.e., turning to my side resting my head on one pillow and then putting another pillow on the other ear. I do twist and turn a lot but this MUST be the sleep-onset posture.

Dessert First. I just cant resist temptation to start with the dessert first in a buffet dinner which embarrasses the person who accompanies me but again, I just cant have it the other way ;-).

Re-reading Books. I can read any book 'n' number of times, even the suspense thrillers, without getting bored. Of course, not at one go but with some time gap and some other books in between.

I cant stand leaking taps. I just cant stand the sound of the waterdrops from an improperly-shut watertap. It feels like a pounding in my head and must get up and close it properly to concentrate on anything else.

I smell food before eating. One thing which I get scolded for each time I am at the table. My food should smell good for me to actually relish it.

Having done this, I am sure I am real nuts :-).

I tag
Kalpana
Shilpa -- tag you for to know your weird side ;-).
Drama Diva
La Vida Loca
Lalitha
Jeannie

Oct 2, 2006

RD gems..

AAaaah.. I fall in love with this book each time I read a new one or re-read the old one.. I have this habit of re-reading books all the time... is it weird??? no idea, nevertheless, I enjoy them all the same :-).

There was this feature called Points to Ponder up until late 90's which offered these rare gems. I still wonder why they wrapped it up though..

No birth certificate is issued when a friendship is born. There is nothing tangible. There is just a feeling that your life is different and that your capacity to love and care has miraculously been enlarged without any effort on your part. It is like having a tiny apartment and somebody moves in with you, but instead of becoming cramped and crowded, the space expands, and you discover rooms you never knew you had until your friend moved in you... Steve Tesich

This soo true, when there is true love or bonding, we continuously keep re-discovering ourselves. One does not suffocate the other, rather extend a fresh breather. I just marvel at how beautifully the words can be woven together to convey a meaning.

Perfect Marraige... does it exist??

Well, a perfect marriage and a great marriage.... what would I prefer????

In a perfect marriage, everything is always the finest and best imaginable; like a Greek statue, the proportions are exact and the finish is unblemished. But who knows any humanbeings like that?? For a married couple to expect perfection in each other is unrealistic. The unblemished ideal exists only in happily-ever-after fairy tales. "If two people agree on everything, one of them is unnecessary." The sooner we accept that as a fact of life, the better we will be able to adjust to each other and enjoy togetherness. "Happily incompatible" is a good adjustment.. Billy Graham in Just As I Am.

This is so true, giving each other space, understanding each other's inconsistencies and fears, helping each other grow as individuals, coping up with things with minor disagreements here and there is all about life.

Have you ever noticed that when we start thinking about certain things constantly, they seem to be popping up from all the corners?? Like say I hear a new thing for the first time and think about it.. surprisingly I seem to find that everywhere I look around or every time I talk to a person.. or maybe I have been hearing and looking at it all the while but it suddenly acquires a new meaning when I actually look at it, I subconsciously pick it up and focus on it primarily.. Relationships seem to be my new-found fetish these days and no matter whatever else I read, my eyes are fixated at you know what ;-).

Sep 30, 2006

Sparrows... where are they????

Being a nature person, I love waking up to the chirping sounds of birds and just enjoying the nature's music in the early hours... but of late with my living in the concrete jungle which is growing by the day and my erratic sleep patterns, I hardly get to enjoy the same. As I lie down listening to the early morning sounds of vehicles buzzing around and an occasional crow singing (yup, that is the only bird I get to listen other than the occasional cuckoo in the summertime) I wonder where those countless sparrows suddenly vanished...

Whenever I used to visit my grandparents' place, that was heaven for me... being a part of the nature, enjoying early morning sounds, locating various birds, specially sparrows and parrots, lots and lots of them around us.. it made me feel really good. Hunting down the nests, checking in on eggs and waiting eagerly for them to hatch was my favorite pass-time activity. I still remember the way I used to run crying to granny when a nest fell down due to wind and the eggs broke and it took days to get back to normal.

I hardly see a sparrow these days. Earlier, they seemed to be there everywhere, building nests in the roof, on the trees, in the burrows, anywhere and everywhere they found a place. In fact,I used to be scared to switch on the fan and got all worked up when I saw them flying around inside the house and ensured all the fans were off.


Photo Courtesy www.sialis.org

There is this tree near about a kilometer or so from my place which is the home for hundreds of sparrows, extremely busy with activity all the day and very calm at night. I go there every once in a while just to listen to them and see them in action but the other day I saw a huge complex coming up there and I just pray they do not cut it down to beautify the place as they always do... then my only chance to see or listen to my childhood friends would be gone :-((..

On a lighter vein...

Different Phases of a man:
After engagement: Superman
After Marriage: Gentleman
After 10 years: Watchman
After 20 years: Doberman

***

There is only one perfect child in the world and every mother has it.
There is only one perfect wife in the world and every neighbour has it.

***

Prospective husband: Do you have a book called 'Man, The Master of Women'?
Salesgirl: The fiction department is on the other side, sir.

***

A man who surrenders when he's WRONG, is HONEST.
A man who surrenders when he's NOT SURE, is WISE.
A man who surrenders when he's RIGHT, is a HUSBAND

***

Life is a paradox-what u want u don't get (love), what u get, u don't enjoy (marriage), what u enjoy is not permanent (girlfriend), what is permanent Is boring (wife)

***

What men want: A woman who can cook, a woman who earns good money, a woman who loves him & a system to make sure that those 3 women never meet each other!

Have a great weekend... :-))

Sep 26, 2006

P to P again..

Looking back at my previous posts I seem to be in a reflective mood :-) and thinking a lot... might be S impact :-)... well, it is one really nice phase I am going through, knowing a lot about myself, exploring feelings in me which were hitherto untouched, beginning to feel more grown up in this past year than in my whole life, having gone through each and every emotion and looking at life in close quarters... I sure have a more mature outlook...

An intimate relationship does not banish loneliness. Only when we are comfortable with who we are and can function independently in a healthy way, can we truly function within a relationship. Two halves do not make a whole when it comes to a healthy relationship: it takes two wholes. --Patricia Fry

How I wonder????

On a lighter note, I had this forward from a friend of mine which showed footwear which left me gasping and wondering how the hell can anyone walk with those... The forward had quite a lot of these but I liked the antique look and the flowery design better than the rest ;-).


aaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww!!! why are they not soooo beautiful for flat footwear :-(((

I have been at the recieving end of the pointed heels once and felt as if my foot was punctured with the pencil-heel :-) and dread them ever since.. I get shivers even when I see others wear them.. hats off ladies who manage to cat-walk on those and still not have leg pain.


A thing of beauty, pain forever :-(

Sep 24, 2006

Points To Ponder...

When reviewing the comments for my previous post, Caps' comment got me thinking again... especially **// If we don't want to hurt others, we need to do what they say. This is Life.//**

It disturbed me a bit.. No matter how rosy I want to portray the picture, I still know deep down that it is very true. The toughest task in the universe is to satisfy a human being. No matter what we do or say, at some point in time we are bound to hurt others even without knowing we did. But again, it is up to us and us ALONE as to how much we let it impact us and get going.

As my thoughts float around, I remember a story or an article in RD, I cannot recall which edition though, that goes along the lines

You think you know everything, but you actually do not even know the difference between a problem and an inconvenience. If you break your neck, if you have nothing to eat, if you are going to die, or something as drastic as these, you can say you have a problem, rest all are inconveniences.. Life is inconvenient and it is lumpy. The solution is to separate the inconveniences from actual problems, and everything will seem simpler.

Sometimes, even the simplest words make a deep impact on our lives and carry a deep inner meaning. Ever since I read that, these words of wisdom have helped me a lot.. every time I am faced with a situation which I feel is beyond my control, am overwhelmed with a gamut of emotions, am backed against a dead-end situation, or am ready to do something really really dumb and stupid in a fit of rage and blind fury, I just about manage to pull myself up and give it a thought "problem or inconvenience?" and trust me, most of times, it is just an inconvenience and once I realize that, the moment passes away like a cloud and everything looks crystal clear. Self-restraint at that point in time is the key but there are moments when I let my emotions and feelings run haywire.. but again even that is a passing moment... got to control that too but again, if I had that much control, I would be one of those enlightened spirits, which I am obviously not...

To sum it up, it all boils down to test of reality. Life is lumpy.. a lump in the oatmeal, a lump in the throat, or a lump in the body system. Each one is different, those are all lumps but impact us in different ways and the key is to learn the difference.

Sep 21, 2006

Thought Provoking

Most of you must be familiar with Pravs World. If not, then you must try it out, it is an amazing site.. I am a subscriber to the same and love those precious wordings that I get every day in my mailbox... kind of reiterates all those good things one must have read somewhere or the other but not given much thought about... The quotes never fail to bring a smile to my face and make a lot of difference to my day...



This one is my favorite quotes and kind of defines my attitude... I hate living life for the society thinking what one might say, what one would think, etc., what the hell, as long as you know you are right, not harming any other human being or hurting another individual's feelings intentionally, everything that you do is good. We are gifted with one short life and that is too precious to ruin thinking about those who do not matter to us and for those we do not matter. I loved seeing this one in the Pravs' collection and could not resist sharing this with you guys..

Sep 20, 2006

Valuable Gifts...

When we were kids, mom used to make us read a lot of books, basically English books to improve our general knowledge as well as vocabulary and we were gifted with dictionaries and books every now and then. But, as a child and a stubborn one at that, I resisted everything that was forced on me and hated reading books, talking in English (yup!!! we were made to talk in English at home as kids.. mom was a telugu-medium educated person and had a tough time adjusting in her job which required English skills, so she wanted her kids to be perfect in English and not face the same problem at work or in school). I still loathe those days when I was forced to read "The Hindu" and its editorial columns aloud and give the gist. Competition Success Review (CSR), particularly the interviews of the toppers in civil services, etc., were our bedtime stories and God, how I hated reading them... but now I realize their importance in making us what we are today, both me and kiddo owe a lot to her persistence and strong will. Thank you mom, for being so strict in that aspect though I hated you at that time, I am eternally indebted to you for all those things.

Looking back, they had been our strong foundation and played a vital role in our character building... Even to this day, I love wisdom and it is my all-time favorite monthly second only to Reader's Digest... what a treasure trove they are...

I was cleaning up by book cupboard and chanced up on this beautiful paragraph listed under "Points To Ponder" in May 1994 RD edition... (yup!! we have a lot of those books even today).... and wanted to share with you all...

Most people get married believing a myth that marraige is a beautiful box full of all the things that they have longed for: companionship, sexual fulfilment, intimacy, friendship, etc. The truth is that marriage, at the start, is an empty box. You must put something in before you can take anything out. There is no love in marriage; love is in people, and people put it in marraige. There is no romance in marriage; people have to infuse it into their marriages. A couple must learn the art and form the habit of giving, loving, serving, praising -- keeping the box full. If you take out more than you put in, the box will be empty.
J. Allan Petersen

This is so true. The key to a successful marraige is so simple. We all know it but when it is put together and expressed in an order, it makes an instant impact. Good luck guys!!! and wish me too... It is very apt when they say a good book is a man's best friend and I am thankful to mom for giving me loads of them.. Even today, she gifts me with books and actually she got one story book printed for me which my friends tease me about but I really loved... well, that is another story, I will preserve for another blog :-).

Touching...

Time and again I have been receiving these gut-wrenching photographs and stories of individuals with a claim like

"The only way they can help is this: If you send this email to other people AOL will track this email and count how many people get it. Every person that opens this email and sends it to at least 3 people will give us 32c... Please help us."

Dont really know how much truth is there in those claims and the stories in the mails that circulate do disturb me quite a lot...

One such thing that I got today is about the Zimbabwean parents' appeal... the poem written is sooo touching...

TO MY CHILD
Just for this morning, I am going to
smile when I see your face and laugh
when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you
choose what you want to wear,
and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step
over the laundry and pick you up and take you to
the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the
dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put
that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug
the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with
you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell
once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and
whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one
if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry
about what you are going to be when you grow up, or
second guess every decision I have made where you are
concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you
help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you
trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us
to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can
have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in
my arms and tell you a story about how you were
born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you
splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you
stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all
the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle
beside you for hours, and miss my favourite TV
shows.
Just for this evening when I run my
finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be
grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever
given.
I will think about the mothers and
fathers who are searching for their missing children, the
mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's
graves instead of their bedrooms. The mothers
and fathers who are in hospital rooms
watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming
inside that little body
And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold
you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then,
that I will thank God for you, and ask him for
nothing, except one more day.............

Sep 16, 2006

Messy Messy

Yo... that is what I am these days.... yours truly was down with viral fever for the past few days... the bug is making rounds in the city and it caught me too through Dad :-(.

I am at my best possible worst situation... with a nose drip that refuses to dry out and not able to sleep peacefully due to nose block, mouth breathing... waaaa.. my God, such a continuous flow, my nose hurts like hell... hope I had something like this one. It might seem funny to look at but that is truly the need of the hour :-((.



I was just lying down reviewing my patient behavior and I can say I am the worst one at that.. I just cant lie down quietly. I make lot of noise and bring down the whole house with me. No wonder my friends say, it is better my parents get sick and not me because they would anyway get sick with all my "sicky tantrums." And much to my horror, I realize it was true. When I went to visit the doctor, the one that I had been visiting for the past 20 years or so, yup he is a general physician and knows my body system through and through, I really felt bad because little kids who were a lot more sick than me were actually smiling and playing around or just sitting quitely while I was sulking all the way... berry berry berry bad (well that is how it sounds with my blocked nose)... I would win the worst patient in the Universe title hands down. I pity everyone around me totally and I promise myself that I wont be this bad next time, well again dont I do that everytime I get sick... but seriously I need to be better-behaved patient this time around.

Sep 13, 2006

Some Interesting Forwards

I keep getting a lot of forwards from my friends and colleagues.. few I laugh at, few I cry at, few I enjoy, few I like, and a few I like verry verry much and which I flag and store in the mailbox.

Got a couple of them today and wanted to share with my blogger friends :-).

Certain simple techniques to cope with our increasingly demanding work-styles.

Try not to use the intercom. Rather, walk to your colleagues and discuss matters.
Stretches your back, and leg muscles. Helps build rapport with colleagues. Relaxes your eyes and ears. Relaxes your neck.

Drink lots of water / liquids.
Will require you to walk to the rest room regularly. Good stress buster.

Small meals at regular intervals
Keeps away acidity. Makes you walk to the cafeteria thus providing exercise.

Laughter is the best medicine
Hard works is good, but let us not lose our sense of humour. Learn to laugh for everything. Stress buster, good for face muscles and eyes. Sharpens thinking capabilities. Mainly, laughter is contagious
.

20, 20, 20, 20 rule - Every 20 minutes, look at an object at least 20 meters away for at least 20 seconds. After that blink your eyes 20 times before you resume on the computer
Good for eyes, neck, back. You get to chose what object you want to look at!
Keep your feet firmly planted on the ground
Good for back, neck and leg muscles. Keeps Ego in check!

Use an external mouse ( Laptop users). Rest you elbow where ever possible
Good for neck, back, arms, shoulders and wrist.

Ensure that you chair is adjusted to optimum height and the back-rest is adjusted to normal (rather than recline)
Good for back and neck

Use speaker-phones for long calls (calls for more than 20 minutes)
Less stressful and enables more movement of the body.

Get it off you . Talk to someone about anything that bothers you.
All of us have stress. It is how we manage it. Make friends in office to whom you can open your heart out. Honest discussions very often provide answers to difficult situations.

All of us spend 8 - 12 hours in office and we need to learn to enjoy these hours. Happy working.... & have a great day!...


HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers.
This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.
2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down. (keep this In mind if you are one of thosegrouches;)
3. Keep learning.
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get idle."An idle mind is the devil's workshop."And the devil's name is Alzheim er's!
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud.
Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and Lots oftime with HIM/HER.
6. The tears happen.
Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entirelife, is ourselves. LIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love.
Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health.
If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips.
Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country,but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

Sep 10, 2006

Hairy woes :-((

One thing that really gives me nightmares these days is, believe it or not, my hair. Something I never thought I would be ruing about until about four years ago :-((.. How I wish I can get back to those good old days.. earlier I used to have those good hair days and bad hair days.. Now.. only lose hair days :-((((...

Worse still, whenever I meet any old acquaintances or friends of mine, the question...... "aaaaaawww dear!! whatz with your hair" spirals me back into my seemingly neverending depressive thoughts related to already-damaged so-called "presentable looks..." aaargghhh... I never thought I would be conscious about the way I looked, least of all my hair... Amma was very right when she used to say "you will realize the value only when you lose it!" No matter what I do, the N number of visits to the dermatologist and the regular physician, popping up multivitamins and iron pills, being on a specified diet of lots of greens and fruit, applying oil, conditioning with henna and head massages... nothing, nothing really seems to help. Each time I brush my hair, I wonder what is left on the head when I see everything in the comb... boooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo...

Phase 1 (Four Years Ago)..
Never used to bother much, no attention, no care..
Phase 2 (Three Years Ago)
Notice thinning, but not really bothered..
Phase 3 (Two Years Ago)
Going for a shorter haircut so that it does not look too thin.
Phase 4 (One Year Ago)
Hairfall at an alarming rate, meet the doc, follow all the tips given by everyone and anyone, hoping what goes comes around :-(.
Current Phase (Today, at this very moment)
Forget about whatz gone, praying that at least I retain what is left....

Caps' tips on hair care... got to check out yet again.. and as T-DNA would say I really would need a mega-miracle to retain whatever is left.. boohooo.. Doc says dont pay a lot of attention to it, stress and depression do this to you at times, but how can I NOT pay attention.. 'cos half my depression is due to the mounting medical bills!!!!

Sep 8, 2006

Oh boy!! She Just Rufuses to Age :-)!!

Asha Bhonsle turns 72 today, and oh boy, she refuses to age... To me, she seems to grow younger by the day... what a journey her life had been. I am an ardent fan of hers.. not restricted by one genre of music, she, according to me, is an all rounder. Give her any song and she will just give it a new life... One gifted life she has and the cheer and happiness she spreads around through her music is amazing.. Hats off Ashaji...

Helen and Asha combination is the most electrifying one and even today I just cant take my eyes enjoying the sheer magic on screen by both these legends..

... and of course that "Mera Kuch Saaman... " from Ijaazat is a gem... Be it any emotions, it seems to slip out soo easily and beautifully from her throat... As I sit down to write, I cant exactly choose my favorite pick... every single song of hers is a delight.. I have grown up listening to her songs and it is amazing that that gifted voice still gives me the exact same pleasure it did when I was too young even to understand those Hindi lyrics.. very true, music knows no language or age barriers, it just leaves us with immense pleasure and satisfaction.

Blending from one generation to another with perfection and moulding herself to the contemperory trends in the world of music, she is truly an inspiration for someone like me who resists change with all my might. She never ceases to surprise me with all the energy and enthusiasm at this age. She is amazing...

Thanks Ashaji for entertaining us for so long and may God bless you...

The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to his commitment to excellence, regardless of his chosen field of endeavour.

Sep 5, 2006

Here and There..

One thing that really caught my attention in the newspaper today is "Outsourcing Surrogacy" or renting the womb, more and more foreign couples turning to India for surrogate mothers. It was meant to be a casual headline but something stuck me real hard. The term outsourcing in this context makes it all so economic and business-like without any human feelings attached to it, it makes it sound as though it were some service sector and who knows maybe our government would even come up with something like "baby tax" with the moolah involved in it. But actually how hard must it be for a woman to bear the child in the womb for 9 full months and without any attachment surrender the infant to someone else just for money. Will the mother be able to ever stay free from the guilt of letting the kid go.. is the satisfaction that the infant will have a better life enough for giving up someone made of our flesh and blood??? Looking from the childless couples' viewpoint, finding a surrogate mother would be the best, but my thoughts just stuck to the term outsourcing and the economic aspect that the paper was listing out, did not delve into their perspective on this...

The world is abuzz with Steve Irwin's sudden demise with a stingray barb.. got to know this through Keshi's post, read in papers, watched it on TV... and that set me thinking what makes this guy click with millions of viewers across the globe.. My grandparents who dont actually know much of English other than simple sentences used to watch his programs with rapt attention and they used to admire him and this in itself speaks a lot. This guy in his trademark khakis, who dared to face the wrath a lot of people for having put his one-month old son while baiting a croc with food putting off their fears stating he wanted to make his kids "croc-savvy", is something special. Being an animal lover that he is, I always wondered why is he called a croc-hunter when he actually loved them so much, isnt hunter meant to be a totally opposite term??? The viewers loved him, hated him, criticized him, but could not ignore him. Now that I know the pain of losing a loved one, I just hope his family that he left behind copes it all with courage...

Sep 3, 2006

It just seems like the other day...

Yesterday, there was this Ganesh Nimajjana near our place. Usually, just before the immersion, the idol is moved from its location and taken around the place in a procession with kids and youngsters dancing to that tapori teen-maar beats and lighting fire crackers, sprinkling colors and all that stuff... It always used to be a great fun watching such events and I always wished I could go out and join them too...

But yesterday, it brought back all my memories with Amma, how we used to go outside the house and give coconut and flowers to the lord and get the prasaadam, how I used to be soooooo happy seeing soo much color and music. She used to pray every year "protect us all and see us through this year lord and we will bring you back the next year and pray you with utmost devotion." I could hear those words ringing in my ears and I could still feel me holding her hand and pointing to her something or the other that excited me and she just being happy at my child-like outbursts :-(( and pointing to something else. She actually used to enjoy all that I did and enjoyed, making me feel wanted and good :-(((...

They say time is the best healer and memories fade away with time but everything seems so fresh, her touch, her voice, her face, everything is so fresh... can I enjoy things the same way without her ever again???

Aug 30, 2006

Kids in Ads..

Ads.. something which have my complete attention when I watch TV.. they are simply the best.

I happened to watch 2 news ads, one of them was where this kid pesters a teen with a whole of lot of questions.. "yeh kya kar rahi ho?, patli banna chaahti ho? chocolate kyo khaati ho?, dieting kyo nahin karti? ulti kyo khadi ho? khana baahar aajayega to? kya mein ulta dikh rahaa hoon? TV mein woh kaun hai? uski to daadi hai? agar tumhe daadi aagaya to???" and goes on with his endless rambling not letting the teen do yoga in peace.

Ad: Reliance Insurance.
Message Driven: Get insurance by answering seven simple questions.

Second One
A kid gets a piggy bank (mud piggy bank) from his grandpa and told to take care of it... and taking care, he does.. he takes it everywhere he goes, when he bathes, when he sleeps, when he goes out in rain, when goes for a walk, and finally goes to a bank in a boat, with an umbrella hung to his shirt on his back, hiding his PB from the boatsman, goes to the bank and puts it in a locker... the whole of it was done beautifully... one must see it to enjoy it..

Ad: Bank of India
Message Driven: We dont just value your money, we value your feelings too. :-))..

Arent they cooooooool???

I just fall in love these kids in the ads every time I see them...
My top list includes
#Sunflower oil ad, kid leaves the home but comes back hearing that mom cooked "Jaleebi".... that workd "Jalebi" still makes me go weak in my knees... choooo chweet.
#that "half-white" tooth paste ad.
#pug and hutch boy.

and now these two...

Accidental Finds... Too Good :-)

Yours truly had a yummy meal today comprising of "Munaga Kaaya Pulusu" or the drumstick curry with lots of onions and tomatoes for gravy prepared my mom.. I must admit that I love eating this curry just for the pure pleasure of chewing it :-). I relish it with utmost joy... You must look at those "yuuukkkkk!!!" stares that I get from my friends when I actually enjoy that to know what I mean :-))). You know, just chew each peice until there is no juice whatsover left it in and it takes like some tasteless grass or cotton in my mouth (pippi, pippi chesi namaladam) :-).

This also reminds me very much of Amma (what doesnt??). We had a couple of trees in our backyard and every alternate day we used to go and get those to get them cooked by her.. did I tell you she was an amazing cook.. she was the best in all the ways...

Just when I was searching for an image of drumsticks to go with this blog of mine, I stumbled on two extremely good cookery sites.. Indian Food and Andhra Recipies from Sailu's Kitchen and Mahanandi hosted by Ms. Indira. You got to believe me when I say I have fallen hook, line, and sinker :-)).. They are really amazing, a mere look at those dishes in these sites made my mouth water and made me want to cook that good too :-)).

Aug 29, 2006

Half A Century To Date :-)

Five months since being an active blogger, 50th post, and still going great.. well, not bad!!

My God!! Blogging is really addictive.. I think I am transforming into a compulsive blogger these days. Time just flies by when I keep clicking the links and keep making virtual friends, I think I have met more people scattered across the globe in the last fortnight than I had ever in my life, getting to know people, their thoughts, making friends, sharing one's ups and downs... it is a different world altogether.. you can say I am hooked on to this blogging stuff.. :-).

By the way, I have or rather had an obsession for these soft toys or any toys for that matter. I have a huuuuuuuuge collection of soft toys, cars, bikes, etc, much to the annoyance of my parents. My mom looks at an excuse to give away at least one of them to my younger cousins or my cousins' kids.. friends keep teasing me that my hubby would have a tough time getting ME and not kids out of the toy store, but kya karen.. control hi nahin hota.. I just cant control the urge..


A few of my softies...

And you know what, each of these softies has a name.. poochie, the brown and white teddy is a beauty.. the teddy dressed as a girl is my oldest and my best buddy "SNOOPY", me and kiddo simply love it (I confess my deepest fears to that and Amma)... I have a frog, a tweety, chicken little, a puppet toy, a bunny, a girl with 2 pigtails, a fish, and a few more teddies tooo.. and I love each and every one of them.

The biiiiiiiiiiiig pink teddy is from S for the first "month-versary" or whatever to call it of our engagement. Isnt it chooo chhweet of him...

Aug 27, 2006

Isnt he the cutest of all..

Wish you one and all a very happy Vinayaka Chaturthi.

Lord Ganesha.. is one of my favorites. Yup!! He, besides being a God, tops my list of favorite people. Isnt he the cutest of all... I love him in all shapes and sizes and just cant resist staring at those cute and sweet idols whenever I go gift shopping. A Ganesha idol is what I would gift my friends any time they are about to begin something really important for them.



And this is just a third of collection that I have on my bedside rack...

This is the only one festival the we ever celebrate in our house on a large scale. Ever since I can remember, me and kiddo used to get all excited and decked up with all our books and certificates ready to keep in the pooja room to get them blessed by him. The decoration that dad does after collecting all the "patri" with his own hands (I have never seen him buy that from outside, he hand picks them all) is awesome.

The best of them all is the one we celebrated in Bangalore, me and kiran reading out Kannada script "katha" since we could not find a Telugu or an English book and mind you, none of us new proper kannada, it is just that the script is similar. We gathered the stories remembering them from our previous years' poojas and from the mythological movies. It was the most hilarious of them all... the way we cleaned up our house, the dishes we prepared, the decoration, the pooja... every single thing will be etched in our memories forever :-)

Last year, amma was with me and we did the pooja together. This year, I am all alone and she is there with him smiling happily at me.. Miss you Amma.

Aug 25, 2006

It is not just Humans..

We were taught in the Solar System that the number of planets revolving around the sun are nine and had to mug them up with proper spellings to score. Our kids will be having one less to remember.. Pluto, the smallest and the farthest planet, which can be classiffied as an underdog planet which has been dogged by controversies ever since its discovery in 1930, is stripped off its Planet status finally... and here I was thinking it is only humans who struggle to attain a status and then retain it... a new realization, even planets are not left alone... coming to that, even the age-old theories are always under constant scrutiny and we never know as to which one will be proven wrong and new one takes it place... Keith Mayes' Theories With Problems provides an interesting read.

Aug 24, 2006

It still feels raw..

Nine months since Amma (my granny) left me and I still feel very raw from within.. Nothing, no matter how greatest the happiness, really seems to make me happy for long. I just feel like it was yesterday we were talking and cracking jokes at the expense of taatee and mom, just yesterday we were watching a movie together or going for shopping together. Every Sunday I still expect a call from her in that booming voice of hers.. "Ammaaa..." I am so very used to her Sunday calls that every time my phone rings, I kind of pray, let it be Amma God, just this once.. I have a lot to tell her a lot many things, everything seems so inconsequential without her!!

How is it possible that one can love another person sooooo much, so loving, so caring, so giving, that unconditional love, that forgiving nature, that bearing everything with the most beautiful smile. Will I ever get over with this mourning for her. I miss her real bad at times, so much so that I feel guilty for being happy without her, not being able to do anything for her, not being able to share my happiest moments with her, the person who took all my fears, pain and gave me back that courage and strength to move on.

She was with me guiding me, supporting me, pulling me up and when I have all that she ever wanted for me, she is not with me to see that... WHY???????

This is for you Amma...

All the times you walked with me and played,
laughed and talked with me...
All the stories you told me before you tucked me into bed
All the hurts that you kissed away
and the hugs that made it okay..
All the things you did for me
are treasured in my memory...
... And I am really very thankful for your love..
... And even if I found a way to return this love to you,
it would not be so complete and true.

Aug 23, 2006

Back on Track..

Surprisingly enough, I got my certificate and pin from AAMT... my oh my.. that was real fast. Feels good and finally it has sunk in. With that done, a quest for a new goal has started. Need to have some kind of a goal to look up to and strive to reach, otherwise life becomes kind of monotonus and boring.

I think I am finally getting back on track with regard to my work, not completely, but I have kind of gotten back to my good old regimen and I am really happy about it, just intend to keep it so now at any cost.

Caps is back with a vengeance and I am waiting for more spiritual and intellectual stuff from her.

I want to visit my favorite place in Hyderabad, the necklace road et al and chill out for a while. Miss you caps, we would have had a blast if together now.

Cluttered Mind

Going over the past few days of my life, I have been feeling stuffy at times and I know I have been real cranky at times testing the patience of the loved ones and quite a few people around me. I was getting increasingly restless, not able to do justice to any task on hand and it seemed as if my life was kind of getting out of my control. I attributed it to a lot of reasons like the new changes in my life, the pressure of coping with a lot of expectations both on the personal and office front, lots of relatives dropping in every now and then and so on until I realized what my actual problem was... clutter around me, both thoughts and the otherwise too. Even with an extremely supportive S by my side, I was getting paranoid and anxious :-(.

I let things pile in my room, getting lazy even to change the bed sheet or keep the old news papers, in a shelf. Everything scattered everywhere, books, toys, sheets, towels thrown around in the most disorderly way, and the dressing table one must see.. full of everything that I laid my hands on. I am not an actual neatness freak but I like things arranged and in order. Over the years, I have come to notice that any kind of clutter makes me go crazy. I might not realize it but it gradually takes its toll on me just like it did now. The other day when I cleared up the mess and the room was back to its spick-and-span form, I realized what went wrong. I feel relieved, kind of became more focussed in my work and work does not seem to be dragging as much.

Well, has the clutter around me in the room got anything to do with my cluttered thoughts, which in turn made me cranky?? Well, it seems so.. I need to have that space, orderly and a neat one, to come back to after a tiring day.

Also, it is really very true that an idle man's mind is a devil's workshop. I have not really been working and putting in anything constructive in a day. Being a person who strongly believes you need to be doing useful stuff in order to call it a day, I dont seem be doing anything worthwhile either. Now that I have made myself and my room clutter-free, I already feel bright and positive and am bustling with a lot of energy and raring to go....

Aug 22, 2006

With My Thinking Cap On...

Thinking long and hard is something which I MUST admit I am not actually capable of. I often wonder at people like S who can keep on thinking and thinking and just thinking and have that "me and my ceiling" approach towards everything and anything. I actually prefer being spontaneous and "thinking on your feet" approach, spontaneity over processed output of the mind. You know.. OMG, I already spent a lot of time on this, I might get a brain fracture type ;-). I consider it the most energy-consuming process of the human body and needless to say I am a strong believer in conservation of resources you see :-).

At those really rare times that I visit that Think Zone, ruminating, my mind varies on a lot of things aimlessly.. so planning to go uncensored now with the mind drifting along the exquisite wonders of the epic called "The Life" the feelings, emotions, love, commitment, balance in life, etc., etc.

Feelings and emotions in love... are they long lasting or are they just superficial self-serving ruminations?? Sometimes, everything seems rosy and picture perfect while at others everything seems so superficial and momentary. Much as I want to accede to the fact that everything is perfect, the fears do keep cropping up, well there have been people who have been there and seen it all and but how many of them have actually succeeded in retaining that unique incomparable flavor of life. Initially, heart wins over the head, when people start staying together there are a lot of possibilities that a lot of unacceptable behaviors in the other person crop up and slowly that yearning diminishes, is this all true. I just hope all my doubts are just big fears.. it is all in our hands as to how we mould our lives is what I feel... OMG, see I already started thinking negative, got to stop here before I go crazy.. that is why it is the best not to think of anything and enjoy every moment as it comes :-), so here I go back to my No-Think Mode. My overexerted brain needs some rest now, so going to have a walk and look at the kids playing the park to unwind a bit.

Ciao..

Aug 18, 2006

Who Moved My Cheese...

Just a couple of days earlier was raving and ranting about how good it feels about getting back to work and blah, blah, blah.. and there I take yet another break for a couple of days.. What is it that is keeping me away from work. Work is something which always kept me from getting into those abysmal depths of depression and despair. Need to pull up my strings faster and give it my cent percent, nine months of constant under-performance is something which is a serious problem but what good is it unless I take a corrective action :-(.

Change has always been a painful process for me, but the latest changes are the most willing ones that we have made happen. Yet, I am not able to cope up with them and strike a balance between my work and personal life. I am not able to figure out if it is just an extended break from the work or am I getting into the homemaker mode already.. whatever it is, bad!! I just need to get things under control pretty soon.. what do I do for that to happen???? well, need to think real hard and come up with something solid this time. Poor S is very supportive of my work and all but still it is me who the CULPRIT is.. just not getting into that "Work Mode."

Good Luck to me!!! I need tons and tons and tons of it to get that old magic touch back!!!!!

Aug 15, 2006

Window shopping...

Window shopping somehow always fascinates me. It might sound real crazy when I say that the only time I really ever wanted to marry was when I went to those big malls and especially the crockery, kitchen equipment, decorative pieces, and furniture areas. The very first time I had been to a big mall, I still remember the way I was looking around wide-eyed, awestruck at the display and equally "struck" looking at the price tags and affording something from there seemed a big thing. Since then, I had been to a lot of malls around the town and in Bangalore and Chennai.. gradually that wonder world feeling vanished but that impulse to get married suddenly and buy all those things never dies ;-).

Well, you can ask me why marraige to buy that stuff, I really dont know but I want to buy those only when we set up a family and help furnish our dream home... you know, new hubby (I see a brow raising here, well I mean to say my better half who would be still new or the relationship which is still new), new home, new furniture, everything the way I like ;-).. ha ha.

One more section that excites me a lot is the kid zone and the toy zone.. Wow.. what a wide range of stuff for those adorable darlings.. I just cant resist an urge to buy whole of them and pamper those cuties. The gang does tease me that my BH would go crazy with my toy shopping or any shopping for that matter.. well, well, I am growing up (by the way did I tell you, I have decided not to go for soft toys anymore... well, got to see, cant be sure with my hyperreflexia in that zone :-(().. on this note, I MUST blog on my cute softie gang one day.. keep watching, I have loads of things to post on them...

Aug 14, 2006

Work rambles..

It is only the second day since my start of work and i already feel down and out. I actually bow my head a thousand times to those homemakers who work from home and are able to do justice to both the work and the personal life. I seem to be messing them both royally.

There is this thing called window period for the home proofers (that is what is my designation right now folks) wherein any work done between 6 a.m. any given day to 6 a.m. the next day is considered to be one day's work, be it at a stretch or in parts. That is, if I start working from say Aug 14 6 a.m. and in bits and pieces work up to the next day, August 15th 5:59 a.m. it is still considered as work of Aug 14th, some crazy rule but I use that thing totally. It is 5:56 a.m. and just finished my yesterday's work. The thought that yet another day of work would begin in just 4 minutes from now is dreading (not really sure if I can use that form of the word here :-). My grammar is becoming weaker and weaker by the day).

I can gladly hit the bed for the whole day if left undisturbed but got to do today's work :-((.. as I type this the clock strikes 6 a.m. of Aug 14th and yet another "WORK DAY" begins :-(((...

Aug 13, 2006

Feels good

Finished my first day's work in this month. Phew.. what a hectic month it has been so far.. For that matter, 7 days last month and a late beginning this month, kind of feeling out of touch. It sure feels good to get back to work and do something what we have been doing for what seems to be have been ages for now. On that note, I have completed 7 full years in transcription and still going.. OMG, I feel like a veteran already as I type this sentence:-).

Aug 11, 2006

Yooohooo... I Did It!!! :-))

Finished my exam and got certified, finally there are these credentials next to my name which are considered to be the best in my field of work.. xxxx xxxxxx, CMT. The application, the prep, and the actual test itself are a big story.

To cut the big story short, prep started a year ago with applying to AAMT and the date elapsing almost twice, the second one ends this August 15th :-). Battling so many odds with the Prometric, AAMT, and my laziness, finally the D-day arrives and I wake up really early but we almost get late as we could not locate the center for quite some time.

After a big hunt, I took up the test, finished first 106 bits in half-hour flat. The actual trouble starts with the snippet part, 63 in all.. with the QWERTY layout being new to me, typing hunting for the keys kind of took all that I had. Finished the 6-hr test in 3 hours flat and when I pressed that END button to finish my test and waited for the result with bated breath, the moment seemed like forever. Finally, I get a congratulatory note on the screen and all the butterflies and knots suddenly vanish and my God, what a relief it is to get done with it and actually get certified.

The happiest person for my little BIG achievement would have been Amma.. miss you Amma, thanks a lot and thank you God. The happiness kind of lost its importance in a moment when I could not figure out whom to tell first. Sadly, S was the last person I told this news as it was his night and did not want to disturb him. Now that I have it, am I really happy?? it has not really sunk properly yet.. will keep you posted though :-).

With this done, I will have a lot of time for all the posts I promised Caps I would put up.. keep watching for more :-)).



One reason to be really proud of and glad is kiddo's convocation at IIT Mumbai. V. Vijay Venu, M.Tech. I am really proud of you bro. He is way too upset about losing the gold medal.. I do understand the frustration on losing out by 0.1 but I am really really proud of him... a CPI of 9.7 out of 10 in Reliability in MTech is not a joke. Way to go kiddo, waiting for more fireworks with your doctorate... cant wait for the day you have that name plate Dr. VVV. :-). Good luck and a loads and loads of wishes.

Miss being with you in that big moment of your life but all my heart is at that place with you. Thanks to the technological leaps that the mankind made, I could see the convocation in the Live Webcast.. world is really getting closer and smaller by the day :-)).

Aug 10, 2006

Kids and Parents

Life is so unpredictable and that is sooo true. Just the day I was blogging about my cutest nephew and the very next day the kiddo falls sick :-(... some Rh incompatibility issues.. but whatever be the reason, my heart just bled looking at the poor one-day-old going through transfusions and stuff like that. We dont really know anything until it actually happens to us. Seeing so many babies with vents on and their tiny bodies covered with tubes and pipes and plasters and what not made my stomach churn for a while.. :-(.

Suddenly a realization dawns as to how our parents brought us up, facing so many odds. Bringing up kids is nothing less than a penace. They are so very dependent on us to care of them, one needs to teach them each and every little thing. Lot of pain and hardwork goes into raising them, but it is worth all that and more... that toothless grin and that twinkle in their eyes takes away all the fatigue. We are certainly indebted to our parents for having made us what we are today. It is really sad that we dont actually take time to acknowledge the fact that we do understand and appreciate and by the time we actually want to do something for them, it is too late :-((.

Love you amma.. miss you soooooooooooo much. Thanks a millon for all that you did for me.

Aug 7, 2006

Great News

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............. Feel like screaming at the roof top.... Me tooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... Thank you God!!.. Thanks for the sweetest, loveliest, cutest, healthy bonny baby nephew for me.. Thanks a million!!!

I always marvelled at the baby's birth and things related it. Babies always remind me of divine creation and their innocence just takes me into another world all together. Any time, looking at a baby smile makes me realy really happy and content. I can go hours and days just looking at them and forget everything.. ultimate source of joy and happiness to me.. they are just toooooo sweet to ignore.

I have seen a newborn for the first time.. actually within 10 minutes of birth and believe me the feeling is really really good.. nothing like I have ever felt before, it is pure ecstasy. The very instant I saw those baby button eyes, I fell in love with him, he is just too adorable.. actually all the kids are, but this is my NEPHEW!!...God bless the kiddo and by the way, you guys can add in loads of your wishes and blessings too...

Aug 5, 2006

Rain Rain Go Away!!


It has been raining like crazy for the last of couple of days. If we, sitting in the comfort of a cosy home, feel so messy about it I wonder how the people in the slums and on the roads survive this ultra-chilled weather and the dirt and disease lurking around. Do I consider myself lucky.. You bet, I do. Just thinking of the prospect of setting my foot out in this weather gives me creeps, I just cant imagine how these people manage.. Lot of people are left stranded without their daily wages, everything suddenly comes to a halt. Why cant everyone live happily? Why is there no equal distribution of resources among all the human beings? I just hope government makes proper use of the taxpayer's money and puts up some shelters for the needy and homeless to provide respite from this relentless weather. Can I ever make any difference in any of their lives?? Well, can I make a difference in at least a person's life constructively... Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.. I got to stop this NOW before I get into one of those end less loops yet again.

Nature's fury!! No idea, but when the balance of nature trips everything goes upside down.

It has been raining cats and dogs (I always wonder why "cats and dogs" of all the creatures. Not knowing "why" does not stop me from using that though. Just hope the sun shows up tomorrow at least for a while. I have become "sun sick" and I remember my nursery rhyme.. "Rain Rain go away, come again another day.. little johny wants to play"...

Jul 28, 2006

Rover.. my only colleague at home..



It really gets boring working from home day in and day out.. with no one working around, I sometimes feel that I am the only one working when the whole world is having fun knowing fully well that is not the case... but still :-)).

Rover, the default windows search companion, the animated doggie that appears with the search command we give in Windows XP is the only colleague who works with me at home. With my penchant for a clean desktop, I often end up creating a lot of folders and dump all the downloads, documents, samples, etc., etc., in some hidden location. If not for that sweetie pie, one might find me whacking my brains trying to figure out what is where.

I love the way that poor thing sniffs out the documents I gave the search string for and takes rest after my constant search commands as long as I work; the way he wags his tail; the way he blinks his huge innocent puppy eyes; the way he sniffs his nose; the yellow bell and the red belt on his neck; that bowl of his, the flag, the ball, the bone, the book.. all the peripherals he uses when we click on that "Do a Trick" option. You got to believe me when I say I spend some time playing with this guy quite often :-)).. Well, let me stop now before S gets jealous of this guy ;-). But all said and done, he is the best colleague I have ever had.. the only problem is he wont talk to me.. but that is okay.. if we end up talking and imagine if he were a chatterbox like me, I wont even start working with the great quality called inertia that I have :-).

First day prep, yet to start.. after a whole day of loafing around and completing the office work for the day, am about to start off my prep.. exactly 15 days to go.. the countdown starts today.. Get, set, go...

Jul 27, 2006

Long Break!!

Back after a long pause once again. So many things happening so fast in life.. everything is new and sometimes overwhelming too..

It really is a crazy roller coaster ride of a whole lot of emotions, especially with something new happening in the life.. suddenly everything seems upside down and every little thing is new.. phew!! Happiness a moment, sad the other; naughty a moment, serious another; sweet a moment, sorry another; soothing a moment, stiffling another... a whole gamut of emotions... my oh my!

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Cant life be simpler. Why do we need to put in so many efforts to have simple friendly relations. Why is it very difficult to satisfy people and why is it that people have hell a lot of expectations compounded with communication problems and ego issues!!! well, well, dont want to get into that serious thinki.. thinki.. thinki.. mode again. Enough!!! consider whatever happened has happened for the best and better to leave out things and people who refuse to see the point and get going!! With S being the center of my life going forward, satisfying every other person's ego is a practical impossibility.

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After a long break from work and studies, around a fortnight or so of serious socializing and visiting family and friends, I need to get back to serious prep.. with my test re-re-re-scheduled on 11th, (hopefully, this time I will actually take it up..) I need to be on my way back to books and serious reading...

Before I drown myself in the world of medical terminology, I needed a serious break and tampered the look of the blog.. looks cool now though ;-).

Jul 7, 2006

Times Together..


Masked Monsters (Caps and Me) in Chennai..

This one is long pending. I am too very absorbed in my very own world to update the once very regular, almost a ritual kind of blogs, they are now quite random and abrupt but I am not complaining and neither are you guys ;-) thanks for understanding.

Caps is back in Hyd. So, time to say "yahoooooo chaahe koi hamein junglee kahen..." and plunge into the fun unlimited zone.. something that we are both fond of.

I dont seem to find enough time to do anything much together nowadays but she being very understanding, we still manage to steal those exclusive "sush-caps moments".

By the way guys, if you want to see "kitakitalu" the much-touted EVV comedy, please think again.. I think that is the first ever movie we walked out on within the first 10 minutes and ended up with headache for the rest of the day but of course we managed to get tickets half-hour late and saw "Sri Rama Dasu" 'cos we did not want to ruin our outing and of course had fun at Tabla ;-) later on once we came out of that kitakitalu impact.

A lot of changes do come in one's life, but true friends stick to each other (touchwood) no matter what. With Anita on her way back to recovery, things do seem a lot more brighter in the near future.. Get well soon and a lot more faster dear.

Jun 16, 2006

Parents will be parents..

I always wonder can we understand them ever completely... naah.. at least not me. When I anticipate them to scold me hard for doing something foolish they dont even say a word and at times, the most unsuspecting ones at that, they would make a ruckus about anything and everything.

I always try and fail to analyze their moods and always end up wondering are all of them like that only. My one question always is why do they always want us to do something which they feel is right for us and not what we feel is right. All said and done, it is a real pleasure to see them accept our decisions and take pride in what we do. Well, may be I would understand these relationship dynamics completely only when I become a parent myself!!

Just looking at their happiness at my being settled gives me immense pleasure. That glow in their faces and the song in their hearts... everything seems too good to believe (touchwood). All the tension that I used to see built up in them for my future is vanished and in that place is a peace and calm. I think we do not understand certain intricacies of relationships unless we pass through them. With my better half by my side everything seems great, two sets of parents who take care of our every little wish, a little kiddo, a sweet SIL, a little sweet monster to complete the picture.... oh wow, sounds like heaven, can do anything to keep this happiness like that (touchwood). I already am head over heels in love with my extended family... Amma just keep showering those blessings on us all.. I know it is you taking care of me from there, miss you the most now.

Jun 14, 2006

Kichpulaav... yummy, yummy..

Heeeeeeeeeyyy my kitchen exploits turned out great today. Ventured into the kitchen out of necessity and what started as an attempt to make kichdi the instant dish I prefer to prepare as there is no need to make any curry separately turned out just fine, in fact great. Looking at a lot of veggies and peas in the fridge, I tried making pulaav of sorts... so ting, tong.. menu change and I ended up making what I named "kichpulaav" and guess what, it was really yummy (certified by mom who never hesitates to comment if it is bad), so it indeed was yummy.

I just cant wait till I make you guys eat it. By the way, I intend to bring about a radical change in the way you perceive my culinary skills. Every doggie has its day, even I will start preparing dishes leaving you guys no option but to beg for more (konchem extra ;-)) .

Committment brings about a lot of changes in the way you look at things. Guess what!!! I actually want to cook good... just to see that glint in his eyes. Well, cant take chances. As the golden adage goes, "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach." I intend to use this golden period (post engagement and pre marraige) to hit the bull's eye. I need all your wishes and more to do that or shall we say, he would need all your wishes and more to bear it all ;-).

Jun 13, 2006

Anger Management :-(

I seem to be so wired up and tensed for no reason at all these days.. getting crankier by the day and this is really really bad of me... what happened to my smiley resolution (by the way, remember I have 2 smileys which I crush when in anger to release it).. I am successful to a large extent when it comes to anyone else but immediate family, God save them from my outbursts...

Life presents us with so many complex situations and it is only with patience and positive approach that we can sail through them easily.. in spite of knowing all this, I get cranky at times and that is the worst part. Today's target was the kiddo.. solid attack with granades, missiles, and all. Will I ever learn not to lose my cool??? Why do I have to be so verbal and hyper when angry, why dont I just let things be and stay silent... I really envy people who can stay as cool as cucumbers in all the situations... when will I ever start acting maturely??

Sorry kiddo for being rude, but mind you only for being rude. I meant what I said and would appreciate if you learn something out of it. I was right but the way I put it is absolutely condemnable.

Got to calm down and put in serious efforts to this end.

Lesson Learned

Phew!!! what a day it was!! Roaming around the city looking out for Sony World outlets and service centers.. what a waste of precious time, all because of some stupid antic of kiddo. Before you wonder what I am talking about, kiddo spoiled my cousin's cam... not a big damage, just broke the battery lock of Sony Digicam, the model which is not available in India.. boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooo... Waiting eagerly for a response from Sony Singapore as to whether and when the case could be replaced. A biiig lesson learned, never ever handle electronic goods of relatives that are not available in India. Not that they would say anything or it is a big deal but because it is a real pain giving explanation and feeling bad and guilty.. yukkkkk!! the sickest feeling.

Missing my other half real bad... it is very difficult staying apart and not being able to communicate properly, well this is day 1 and there are a lot many more days to go!!! I just hope I get used to this feeling and not be an obstacle in his career path.

Got to start working at least now.. it has been almost a fortnight since I actually worked... okai then before I drift off into another deep sorrow session, let me get back to work and do something constructive... ciao then..

Jun 12, 2006

Am back!!

Before you guys think I have vanished from the surface of this earth.. here is a confirmation, I did not!! was way too busy with so much happening in my life so soon.

Guess you guys must have checked the snaps by now.. I am happy that a few of you could make it to be with me and bless us both and the rest of you all, I missed you a loooooooooooot!! I was actually way too busy to notice anything but I know it would have been a lot better with you guys' physical presence.

It is strange how strangers come into our lives and suddenly become the center of our universe. It is a real great feeling of belonging to someone and starting a whole new life of our own sharing all the ups and downs. The very feeling of not being alone anymore is awesome!!

Its an amazing feeling to realise that you have found the one you are going to spend your whole life loving and caring and knowing as well, not because you have to(like with family) but you want to...

Thanks amma!!! I miss you but now I know you are there right next to me, making things easy for me. Thanks for filling my life with all that I wanted and more.

May 18, 2006

Mama Mia, Here I go again...

Finally, I got a slot.. I just cant believe it, I did that after almost a year and a half (pinching myself time and again).

With Kiddo's arrival my day is wasted, no work, no study, just plain loafing around.

By the way wonder of wonders... I have not touched TV in quite some time.. 2 full weeks, an achievement in itself... really a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig wow!!!! on this.. Common guys, I really deserve an applause for this. I wonder how I managed to do without my daily dose of rona, dhona, sanskaar, parivaar daily serials. Without TV, I seem to pack more into my day and there I was wondering I would be having withdrawal symptoms.. ha ha!!

Even with all the hue and cry about the movie, I am keeping my fingers crossed that "The Da Vinci Code" lives up to its book version. Many times in transition from words to frames, the content loses it flavor. I ruined my liking for Pride and Prejudice watching the movie. Just hope this one turns out to be fine!! Big hope though, the reviews dont seem to be all that good... just cant wait to watch it!!

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Outing with Mom and guess what, I actually liked it. Just went out for a casual walk and ended up shopping and eating out.. had a blast. Now I know where I got those strange eating habits... in the genes you see ;-). The downside was she got me a book "From Fat to Fit" booohooo. I felt like yelling from the roof top "I am not FAT... just a little plumpy for god's sake."

Hey, you guys ever had Chicken Corn Pizza, sounds a crazy combo but reaaaaaaaal yummmy!! Try it out. Food is great but it would have been better if they had toy meal offers like in Mac Donald's.

Hey Caps, Magna serves the best pani puris in Taste Buds.. just come fast.

HIMYM.. Fun Unlimited

If you are wondering what that acronym means.. it's "How I Met Your Mother," my favorite sitcom on US TV which I get to watch thanks to my bro's unlimited patience.

If you have seen Friends and are a fan of it, you just cant help falling in love with this one.. All about a group of 5 friends (lilly and Marshall, Ted and Robin, and Barney). It is about a guy telling his kids how he met their mom. It is outright hilarious and has the best quotes ever.. I just love every single conversation between those friends. For all those who want to watch it, I have them all (given strictly on an on-return basis.)

"There are certain things in life where you think it is a mistake but you dont really know it is a mistake because the only way you know it is a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say that it was a mistake. So really the bigger mistake would be not to make a mistake!!! Do you understand."-- Lilly.

"Yup.. uh.. you used mistake a lot!!"-- Ted

May 17, 2006

Prep, job... rambling and more rambling

It is just about 12:15 and I am done with work for today, not bad considering that I have not started that early either. Well, it seems to have been ages since I did that. Stretching throughout the day is messy and irritating. It is like being on the job all the day.. not working yet you have that target looming over, relaxing yet not actually relaxing... phew, no wonder I have been feeling overworked but actually working less.

One good thing is I finally got my approval for CMT third time around, well lemme paste it here for you guys to see. Hopefully (keeping my fingers crossed), I wont let it lapse this time around.

Exam: CMTB
AAMT ID: 141905
Authorization good through: 8/15/2006 (which means I need to take up the test before 15th August).



On this note, why not tell you what I actually do for my bread and butter :-).

Medical Transcription.. A major healthcare outsourcing by US to India, where medical reports are typed out and sent back to US within a specified TAT (turn-around time). It is not just data entry job, as many of you guys tend to misunderstand. It requires a lot of skill, patience, undivided attention to the job on the hand and constant upgradation of the skills to survive the competition and come out a winner, not to say the occupational hazards involved in the long run. I am not saying this because I do it, but actually working for so long and knowing inside outs of this profession, I do understand and respect those guys who have been doing it for a long time.

Well, rather than me going blah.. blah.. about it all, for all those who are interested just check it out straight from the horse's mouth .

After almost 7 years into transcription, I feel like a veteran and just like those of you who are working, I have this love-hate relationship with my job. I love it for its complexity and skill-set utilization but hate it when it becomes mere garbage cleaning (I am a proof reader by the way, which means I dont actually type out the document but ensure that the quality of the transcript is accurate). Some transcripts are sooooooooo bad that believe me, I would give anything to just ignore it and type it myself, but I just cant do because I need to grade the jobs as well, constructive feedback (my foot) you see.

On-the-job issues we have are difficult dictators (believe me you got to listen to them to believe English can be spoken this bad. It often leaves me wondering how they got to pass medicine and become the specialists that they are!!). Interestingly enough the toughest ones are not the Americans, they are the easiest. The problem is with those Indians, Chineese, Japanese, Mexican authors, i.e., basically all those non-American-origin guys who try to imitate the American accent and make our lives miserable and surprisingly they are the ones who crib the most about quality (comeon, speak out clearly for god's sake!!, You are getting what you give us you morons!!!). Some docs do give me nightmares (Bejjani, Neuschwander, Domat, Muthappan.. endless list though) and at times I just feel like leaving my job forever and find something better to do but then when I finish those jobs with no blanks at all, I have that feeling of triumph over them which is unmatchable.

The upside to this all is we are well-equipped with medical knowledge and are aware of a lot of healthcare-related concerns, get familiar with a different culture, lifestyle, etc. and cracking a word using all your correlating skills gives us immense pleasure and the satisfaction of a job well done. The downside however, is, believe me, you just cant trust these Indian government doctors anymore. I dont intend to demean the medical fraternity here. There is no dreath of talent here but the services of the talented lot are limited only to the rich and famous in India (pun intended!)... okay, I will stop here. I can go on and on this topic though.. let me save it for my blog on them some other time.

Getting back to my work, I work for a place which provides 24x7 transcription support, which means we work in shifts.. Night shift (10 to 6) is permanant and is a voluntary option but the day shift is rotational with change every 15 days (6 to 2 and 2 to 10). As you all know, I work from home and being a proofreader is the topmost post I can reach, which means I am saturated right now, growth wise. One major change, which I think has been one of my worst career decisions so far is going back to dayshift. Another nightmare.. oops daymare (if there can be something like that) is my new dayshift TL, lilly as I grudgingly call him. Believe me, he is neither beautiful not fragrant as the actually lilly is, quite tangentially opposite in fact. My workday starts and ends with his pops in the IP switch (in-house pop). I am not exaggerating, mind you, the day he wishes me, I can be rest assured that my day is gone to dogs. Well, that may be the reason of my overstretched work hours these days. He leaves no stone unturned to breathe down my neck, "did you login, how is it going, are you going to work, how much left, check this mail, do that thing, can you open that attachment, is the data clear... blah.. blah... blah..." try switching off the pop to get some peace of mind and there he is on your phone going blah... blah.. blah... God, save me from him!!! If I am planning to become a sanyasi one of these days, you now know who the cause is.

To sum it all.. my job is either a New Challenge Every Day or Same S*** Different Day (SSDD as Jeannie calls it) based on a lot of factors and my varying moods of course.

For Evil Eyes on LO