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There is neither a structure nor a texture to this blog. The subject matter can be anything and everything under the sky that I feel about at any given point that I happen to sit and blog rambling about everything in general. My thoughts and views are basically influenced by what I read, hear, gather, and ponder... if there is any copyright violation which I have not duly acknowledged, kindly let me know.

Ref: Chichkoo is what I lovingly call my daughter, kiddo my brother, amma and taatee my late maternal grandparents, and OA is the other adult in the family.

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May 23, 2007

Tag

Varuna tagged me and here I go looking back at my life and putiing it out for you all out there :)

Smoked Cigarette - Once.. took one puff from my brother who is a Chimney Smoker.. yukkk!!! did not cough like they show in movies but I had this very raw and terrible feeling in throat for a couple of hours.
Crashed a Frnd's car - No such luck.. cant drive
Stolen a car - Never, no inclination nor guts to do so.
Been in Love - yup!!!.
Been Dumped - Twice.. but it proved really lucky for me.
Shoplifted - Nope.
Been Fired - Not Yet.
Been in a fist fight - yup, with my hubby and earlier with my granny.
Snuck out of yours parent's home - Not Ever.
Had feelings for someone who din't have them back - I still have towards a lot of people.. Nagarjuna is one of them ;).
Been arrested - No WAY!!.
Gone for a Blind Date - Naaah.
Lied to a frnd - yes,several times.
Skipped School -
Seen someone die - My maternal Grandma.
Had a crush on one of ur internet frnds - Nope.
Been to canada - Nope.
Been to Mexico - Nope.
Been on plane - Yup.
Purposely set a part of urself on fire - Never.
Eaten sushi - Yup...
Been jet-skiing - Yup.. in Virginia Beach.
Met someone in person from the internet - Married one ... :).
Taken pain killers - Yup.
Loved n missed someone - Yeah.. miss my granny like hell even now.
Flown a kite - Yes,long long ago when I was a kid.
Built a sand castle - Yup.
Gone puddle jumping - Yup as a kid :)
Been lonely - Yes.
Fallen asleep at work or school- School.. Many Times.
Used a fake ID - Nope.
Watched a sunset - Lots of times.. it just looks heavenly.
Felt an earthquake - No... touchwood
Touched a snake - Yup... in a snake awareness program in Bangalore.
Slept beneath the stars - Yup.. as a kid listening to Jana Ranjani from the neighbours radio and listening to granny's tales.
Been robbed - Yup.. by my maid..
Been misunderstood - yes, sometimes.
Petted a reindeer/goat - Nope
Won a contest - nope.
Run a redlight/stop sign - nope
Been suspended from school - no.
Been in a car accident - Naah.
Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one nite - Not yet.
Had deja vu - Whatz it???
Danced in the moonlite - Nope.
Witnessed a crime - Nope.
Been obsessed with post-it notes - Nope
Squished barefoot thr' the mud - Yup, many times as a kid.
Been lost - yup.. mostly with my dad in the driving seat and twice with my hubby.
Been on the opp side of the country - Nope.
Swam in the ocean - No.
Cried urself to sleep - Yes a lots of times.. after my granny's death it was kind of a routine
Played cops n robbers - yup.
Recently colored with crayons - Yup
Sung Karoke - No listeners ;)..
Paid for a meal with only coins - Yup.
Done something u told urself u wudn't - Yup.. kya kare control hi nahin hota..
Made prank calls - yup.
Caught snow flake on ur tongue - Nope.. no snow in Atlanta.. it is HOT-lanta.
Written a letter to Santa Clause - Nope, will he accept now ;).
Watched The sun rise with someone u care abt - Yup.. with my granny.
Blown bubbles - in the exhibition.
Bonfire on the beach - Nope.
Laughed so hard u pee ur pants - Nope.
Cheated on test - Yup.. at times.
Been kissed by Someone u din't like - nope....

Tag Yourself...

May 20, 2007

Volunteering.. SS in US - 12

Finally, I had been to library as a volunteer clerical aide for a few hours. It is a great feeling, doing something other than the housework for a change. Been there by 10, browsed a lot of books and net for a while and got to my work around 2 p.m. I was assigned to the circulation department for the starters and my job was to sort the books returned into categories to be sent to the respective floors, sort out books to be sent to the other libraries, fold the paper ads in multiples of 30, stack the cds and lock them. It was pure manual labor but felt good putting on that tag and interacting with the staff like an insider.. was assigned a cubicle and am allowed to read between tasks too ;).

Looking forward to my other tasks like homework help aide, interacting with kids' activities, etc.

Little Big Steps, Fear Factor .. SS in US 11

Thank God for the small mercies. My OH never stops me from doing things which I very much want to. I see a lot of women being scared to get out on their own, mostly because of the spouses retricting due to fear factor. I get lectured by a few ladies in the apartment about going alone to Target, Michaels, or Steinmart which are just a couple of blocks away from home. Well, it is true we need to be cautious but not so much that we miss out on simple pleasures like walking or meeting friends is what I feel.

The other day, my cousin had a gap of 3 hrs between flights in Atlanta and I was thrilled on being allowed to go on my own!!! I went there on my own, cab and train to airport, spent some time with the kiddo, had lunch at a sandwich shop in the mall on the way back in downtown and stayed in the library until OH was done with his office work. This might not be a big deal at all for a lot of you out there but for me who is dead scared of the seemingly never-ending escalators and crossing the roads alone, it is a huge leap. I love the busy life of downtown where we see a lot of people around and for once felt a part of it, doing something on my own that is.

Spur Of The Moment

There are a lot of things which I do just in a moment of rage or after certain amount of boiling within.. Well, me being the peson who hates negativity, always end up hating myself the most for that. Will I ever learn??

I have everything at this very moment, but still my heart yearns for something unknown, which I am sure will go unnoticed when I have because I dont really know what it is.

May 17, 2007

Meet The Desi... good forward

We are like this only.. so true, so very true .........

1. Everything you eat is savored in garlic, onion and tomatoes.
2. You try and reuse gift wrappers, gift boxes, and of course aluminum foil.
3. You are Always standing next to the two largest size suitcases at the Airport.
4. You arrive one or two hours late to a party - and think it's normal.
5. You peel the stamps off letters that the Postal Service missed to stamp.
6. You recycle Wedding Gifts , Birthday Gifts and Anniversary Gifts.
7. You name your children in rhythms (example, Sita & Gita, Ram & Shyam, Kamini & Shamini.)
8. All your children have pet names, which sound nowhere close to their real names.
9. You take Indian snacks anywhere it says "No Food Allowed"
10. You talk for an hour at the front door when leaving someone's house.
11. You load up the family car with as many people as possible.
12. You use plastic to cover anything new in your house whether it's the remote control, VCR, carpet or new couch.
13. Your parents tell you not to care what your friends think, but they won't let you do certain things because of what the other "Uncles and Aunties" will think.
14. You buy and display crockery, which is never used , as it is for special occasions, which never happen.
15. You have a vinyl tablecloth on your kitchen table.
16. You use grocery bags to hold garbage.
17. You keep leftover food in your fridge in as many numbers of bowls as possible.
18. Your kitchen shelf is full of jars, varieties of bowls and plastic utensils (got free with purchase of other stuff)
19. You carry a stash of your own food whenever you travel (and travel means any car ride longer than 15 minutes).
20. You own a rice cooker or a pressure cooker.
21. You fight over who pays the dinner bill.
22. You live with your parents and you are 40 years old. (And they prefer it that way).
23. You don't use measuring cups when cooking.
24. You never learnt how to stand in a queue.
25. You can only travel if there are 5 persons at least to see you off or receive you whether you are traveling by bus, train or plane.
26. If she is NOT your daughter, you always take interest in knowing whose daughter has run with whose son and feel proud to spread it at the velocity of more than the speed of light.
27. You only make long distance calls after 11 p.m.
28. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.
29. You call an older person you never met before Uncle or Aunty."
30. When your parents meet strangers and talk for a few minutes, you discover you're talking to a distant cousin.
31. Your parents don't realize phone connections to foreign countries have improved in the last two decades, and still scream at the top of their lungs when making foreign calls.
32. You have bed sheets on your sofas so as to keep them from getting dirty.
33. It's embarrassing if your wedding has less than 600 people.
34. All your Tupperware is stained with food color.
35. You have drinking glasses made of steel.
36. You have mastered the art of bargaining in shopping.

May 13, 2007

Me 'N' My Mom 'N' Her Mom

THIS is what I wrote about my mom last year for mother's day!!! Before I realize, it is another year and everything has changed so much in this year. My getting married is, I guess, one of the giant leaps in our relationships. I understand her situations better now and what she has done for us more than ever and appreciate it more. I do not regret knowing her much late in my life, I am just thankful now that I do.

She is one of the gentlest souls that one would ever come across, her helping nature is what used to irk me no end all my life and it still does at times. My God!!!, if someone asks her something that she has, all that she does is simply give it, mostly money, gold, sarees, stuff at home, anything and everything and my constant crib was "why dont you give me away someday too??" Each time I went over to granny's place, I used to find most of my old dresses, books, etc., gone.. the worst hit were my toys.. waaaa. It is not that I am not generous but I found that most people take advantage of her, she used to spend all her money giving away and the ones taking used to consider us fools, they still do at times. Her reply to this is "Gods sees it all, he has to give us and what he does we need to share" and tells this story which goes like a scorpion falls into water and the sage protects it by taking it out with his hands. As soon as it is out, it just stings its benefactor. When the passersby ask about this he says, kindness is my nature and stinging is its, we are both doing our duties".. phew!!! This Mothers Day I pray that she gets wise and starts taking care of herself as she is at the verge of retirement and almost penniless when she comes out thanks to her ultra-kind deeds!!! I feel so protective of her from across the seas but I know that she is the one who needs to help herself and understand people think it is madness and not kindness.

Well, before you think I switched my loyalties from my Amma, it is she who comes first always. I love her very much, the grief still hits me in waves just swirling me with it at times, but for the most part I have come to terms with her loss, it is my second mother's day without her. I still the remember way she used to be so happy that I wished first every year and ask what she wants for the day and all she ever asked was for me to be happy.. yup!! I am happy now, but she is not there to see that :(.

May 11, 2007

My System Woes :((

I have yet again managed to ruin my system.. waaaaaaaaaa...... it just wont start, so yet another long wait maybe.. but will try to be as active as possible and as and when my OH hands me his system.

May 9, 2007

Wonder Why?

I sometimes wonder why of the all the living creatures I know, man is the only one who has to clean, cut, and cook the food he eats :(((((.. he is the one who has to wash, groom, and dress :(((. Why cant we just follow them at least in food habits :)!!!

May 8, 2007

In The Middle of a Circle called LIFE!!!

How beautiful was the world when we were little. The only bond we knew was of our parents or the primary care providers (maternal grandparents in my case). Just eat, drink, sleep and total masti. No problems whatsoever with the grownup terms boredom, frustration, depression, etc. to deal with. The most selfish yet self-less stage of our life, very apt to say that the little bundles comes with a huge heart, so pure, so innocent away from all the malice in the world, so giving, so tender, so secure, trusting the hands that hold them, bawling and making ruckus one moment and just giving those disarming smile at the others...

Then comes the phase of education, running round and round from school to college to university, grasping the concepts of geography, physics, chemistry, math, civics.. this, that, and everything of which only 1% or less is used in what we choose for our livelihood, i.e, earning our bread and butter. Thrown into harsh reality, out of the warm cocoon, we struggle to get whatever we want money, fame, kids, family, etc. Then caring about the kids, their lives, taking care of our parents and grandparents and then watch helplessly as they leave us one by one.. kids by becoming independent and in search of their own destiny and elders to an unknown destination leaving their imprints deep in our hearts.

The old age where people become enriched with their vast experiences in life is something really precious. With the daily run for survival almost past, they have loads of time to spend with us and make our lives richer by just being in them. Yes!!! life is a full circle and I find myself in the midst of the same looking at one generation (grandparents and all grand-relatives) gradually disappearing making the next (parents and their siblings) their representatives to carry forward the family name and of course, the LIFE.

So True..

One line definitions for Confidence, Trust and Hope.

CONFIDENCE
Once, all village people decided to pray for rain. On the day of prayer all people gathered and only one boy came with an umbrella.

That's Confidence

TRUST
Trust should be like the feeling of a one year old baby when you throw him in the air, he laughs......because he knows you will catch him.

That's Trust

HOPE
Every night we go to bed, we have no assurance to get up alive in the next morning but still you have plans for the coming day.

That's Hope

HAVE CONFIDENCE,
TRUST OTHERS &
NEVER LOSE HOPE.
In Life do the ordinary, GOD will do extra ordinary,
Do the natural, GOD will do supernatural
Do the possible, GOD will do impossible.

May 4, 2007

Yaayyy!!!!

One great news finally from my mom's side... she has finally cleared the accounts test and is eligible to climb up the ladder when she is about to retire in about 5 months from now. Over the years, when she had an opportunity she just did not take it up 'cos, promotion would inevitably mean transfer and that would mean disturbing our already disturbed family equation, new schools, new house, a mad rush. Finally when we were all set, her only ambition was to clear up the test just to prove to herself that she could do it and it had become a burning desire to her. I did not realize how much that mattered to her until the day before when she announced that she has cleared the test finally after a couple of attempts and failures. She was all choked up when she told me that she did it finally and after sleeping on it for a day, I have tears in my eyes too. Agreed, it is a small promotion, small test, millions have taken it before her but she doing it after braving out everything in her life andtowards the very end of her career is something which means a lot more to three of us, mom, bro, and me... Congrats mom and we love you!!!!

She has rejoiced our every little success as much as her own through all the ups and downs in her life and when she wanted something to do by herself, we were making fun of her inability to clear the test, sorry about that mom and we know as usual you would have forgiven us at that very moment..

May 3, 2007

Do You Ever......

Do you ever feel like

...there is a remote in our lives just like Adam Sandler in Click with some additional features like rewinding, muting things we dont want to hear, and replaying things we want again and again and again.

...there is this control with you which could make everyone listen to whatever you say unquestioningly.

...you want to wipe out everything in your life just like you could wipe out a slate and start afresh with only the things you like the most.

...you could hold the cloud passing by and go to India every weekend, meet up with your loved ones and come back on Monday.

...you could just like whatever you have at this point in time and feel content with it.

and Finally, Do you ever feel like crying your lungs out for no immediate reason whatsoever, 'cos that is what I did the other day much to my own surprise, no reason, absolutely nothing, just cry out aloud as if to clear your tear ducts and unclog your throat!!!.. well, well I never seem to surprise myself and OH enough.. poor thing :)

The Mega Cooks :))

Chicken Haleem is a delicacy I love. Every year, I await the month of Ramadan for this yummy dish. I think almost all the non-veg guys from Hyderabad must have tasted it. This is considered to be a high source of energy after a day-long fasting. Making this dish is something which I have never ever dreamt of in my entire life because it has to be cooked on very low flame for quite some time in fact the whole day. I used to fast for one day during the holy month, just one day and that too with great difficulty but relish this dish almost every day if possible :).



We had this crock-pot or slow cooker in our house for quite some time which OH has bought mistaking it for a normal electric cooker. True to its name, the slow cooker takes 4 hrs to cook a glass of rice :)). Not the one to go return anything bought once, it was just lying in the house and we used to just joke around that letz cook Haleem some day, ideal for that dish and yup!! we made that thanks to persistence of OH who at any cost wanted to use the cooker at least once :).



So, we started cooking this stuff Sunday 1 p.m. and finished it by Monday 6 p.m., almost 30 hours... phew!!! but it did turn out really really well much to our delight and all the efforts seemed worth it and our friends liked it a lot too. US!! you make me do things which I never dreamt of :))



Now that we have gotten the technique to the T, so long as we are in US, we dont have to wait for a whole year, just prepare it when we feel like..

For Evil Eyes on LO