There is neither a structure nor a texture to this blog. The subject matter can be anything and everything under the sky that I feel about at any given point that I happen to sit and blog rambling about everything in general. My thoughts and views are basically influenced by what I read, hear, gather, and ponder... if there is any copyright violation which I have not duly acknowledged, kindly let me know.
My world comprises of LO the little one, OA the other adult at home, kiddo the brother :)
May 8, 2009
How do you feel now that you are a mother?? This is one question that I loved asking my friends enjoying the motherhood and now when it is my turn it somehow feels so unreal at times and ecstatic at others.
It has been nearly a month and I still am to come to terms with the fact that I have this tiny little baby all for myself, who is entirely dependent on me and everything that I do or dont do will have an impact on her for the rest of both of our lives.
She is the one I have always wanted, the most precious gift to me. I have always wondered how it feels and now I know.. like I read or heard somewhere, it is like my heart outside my body. She has been a part of me for so long that she still feels like an extended body part to me.
On her way out, she has left a baby-shaped hole in my heart which I can feel, hear, see, and kiss for real. When they say that a woman is complete when she becomes a mother, it might not always be true because completion means a lot of things to a lot of people. For me, being complete is giving a meaning to our own life and to the people around us. She has made me a mother and it is up to me to bring her up and make myself complete. She has started a new chapter in my life and giving meaning to it is in my hands now. God give me the strength to be worthy of being a mother to this tiny angel.
It is like ME in me has given way to HER in my life and with one look, she has earned a slave for life in me. I reiterate my promise to you my LO that I will be there no matter what until the time you need me and I pledge my life to you and your well-being!!