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Jul 11, 2010

Nirvedam

Ento teliyadu kaani ninna nenu maa doorapu bandhuvu, varasaki babaye ayye aayana death ceremony choosi vacchetappudu pade pade "nirvedam" ane maata naa burralo medilindi... meaning ento teliyadu, enduku gurtocchindo teliyadu, eppudu vinnaano antakante gurtu raatledu kaani ade padam manasulo nilichipoyindi...

Okappudu chaavu ane padam vinapadetene bhayapadi sokaalu modalu pette nenu ippudu adoka jeevita satyam ani samaadhaana padipoyi inkokarini samudaayinche stithiki raavadam nijamgaane naaku peddarikam vacchesindemo anipinche vaastavam.

Naalo ee maarpuki modalu maa amma maatalu... evairaina chacchipoyaaru ante vaniki chacchipoye nannu daggara koorchopetti cheppina maatalu.

Evaraina subhakaaryalaki pilichinappudu vellinaa, vellalekapoyinaa evaraina poyaaru ani telisinappudu maatram maa amma, taata tappakundaa vellevaaru, nannu teesukellalani choosevaru.. naakemo bhayam, vaallakemo kartavyam.. intlo okkadaanne undaalante bhayam, vellalante akkada bhayam, elagola vellinaa kooda aa inti bayate nilchuni eppudu amma, taata vastaara ani eduru choopulu.

Okasari, maa intlo addeki unde okaayana unna pettuna mancham meeda alaage chanipoyaaru... jabbu ledu emi ledu, alaaga padukuni poyaaru... appudu vaalla aavida pettinaa keka ippatiki naaku gurtu undi.. ekkado pote tappinchukovacchu kaani mana intlo ante tappadu kada, appudu nannu choosi maa amma chesina gnanabodha nannu chaala chaala marchindi.. okesaarigaa kaadu melli melligaa..

"Amma bratuku chakramlo puttuka chaavu tappavey.. pasi pillallonu, poyina vaarilonu devudu untaadamma.. okati jeevitam modalayyindi anadaaniki gurtu, inkokati chivariki neekide migiledi enduku taapatrayam ani nerpinche gurtu.. nuvvu enta tappinchukunna tappanivi ivenamma. Oka manishi poyinappudu tappakundaa kudirite choodalamma, inka manam enta anukunna aa manishi gnaapakaale kaani aa manishi kanipincharu kada, okkasaari aa manishi mattilo kalisipoyemundu aakhari choopulu tappakundaa choodalamma.  Manishi jeevitam puttuka to madalu ayyi, bratikinannaallu kaama, krodha, madha, lobha, mohaalaki baanisgaa undi chaavuto oka paripoornatani nimpukuntundi, alaanti aa chaavuni choosi bhayapada koodadamma, bratiki unnanduku edokati cheyyali ani tapana penchukovaali.."

Amma maata meeda guri unna nenu, melligaa maaraanu, evarina telisina vaallu pote tappakundaa velli choosi dannam pettukuni vastaanu.. evaridaina savam eduru vaste daaniki dannam pettukuntaanu, aakhariki ambulancelo evaraina vellina kooda dannam pettukuntaanu...

Aina kooda, maa ammani choosentavaruku naaku oka chaavu gurinchi emi teliyadu, naadoka prapancham, nenoka pudingini, chinni chinni vishyaalu saasvatam anukune vayasu, nene goppa ani virraveege manasu.  Aavida potu potu enno swayamga choopinchi vellinatlayyindi.. naaku badha ante ento, jeevitam ante ento..aavida poyina nela rojulaninchi ee roju daaka telustoone undi.. yaantrikamga bratike manishi jeevitamlo enni egudu digudulu untaayo, edi nijam, edi sasvatam anedi rojukokasari telustoone undi, bratiki unnannaallu naa kartavyam ento naaku bodistunte untundi...

Amma cheppina maatalu pade padu gurtostay, amma laage.. eppudu elani vaarta vinna ave maatalu, ade roopam.. inni naaku nerpinchina ammani naa biddaki choopinchalene ani badha..

Intaa telisi enduku naalo kopam, aham, pattudala migili unnayo naaku artham kaadu... enduku ee monditanam, enduku nenu kondarini kshaminchalekapotunnanu, enduku naaku naa jeevitaannichina kanna tandri ante anta asahyam, enduku???  enni telisinaa, konni aacharanalopettadaaniki chaala pedda manasu kaavaali... telisinavanni kooda aacharanalo petteste nenu kooda Buddhudu vanti mahaa purushula listlo cheripotaanemo.... "kshama" ane gunam naalo eppudu peruguntundo, asalu perugutundo ledo teliyadu.... asalu kshamaagunam valana annitiki ateetamga bratakadam anedi nijamaina mukti maargam emo kada?

9 comments:

Kalpana said...

sree, ninna night ae nuvvu gurthukochchaavu. Elaa thelusaa, Brahmakumari's program chusinappudu. The topic was about controlling anger, achieving peace and forgiveness. Ee post chaduvuthunte, ade medilindi. What they said was, anthaa manalone undi ani. We think it's because of other's we are like this. This is how they are. And, we need to accept ourselves. Like, we need to accept our anger, and see it as a third person just like how a small child gets conscious while playing when he feels his parents are around. So, this consciousness helps and acceptance of our feeling's on our Self will slowly lead to peace and will help us to forgive people in turn. It's tough though, but through practice it works. All is in the mind, anthe. Mana thoughts ae manalni lead chesthaayi. Intha cheppaanaa, naa kopaanni nene control chesukovataaniki naanaa thantaalu paduthunnaa.. But, am trying... Thappadu kadaa.

మురళి said...

Intaa telisi enduku naalo kopam, aham, pattudala migili unnayo naaku artham kaadu... enduku ee monditanam, enduku nenu kondarini kshaminchalekapotunnanu, enduku naaku naa jeevitaannichina kanna tandri ante anta asahyam, enduku??? enni telisinaa, konni aacharanalopettadaaniki chaala pedda manasu kaavaali... telisinavanni kooda aacharanalo petteste nenu kooda Buddhudu vanti mahaa purushula listlo cheripotaanemo.... "kshama" ane gunam naalo eppudu peruguntundo, asalu perugutundo ledo teliyadu.... asalu kshamaagunam valana annitiki ateetamga bratakadam anedi nijamaina mukti maargam emo kada?

enta bagaa chepparu madam..same na alochanlu kuda ilane sagutunnayi...

Sunita said...

Nirvanam, vedantham kalipi Nirvedam ayindi anukuntanu.. Chaala apt ga clear ga chepparu mee ammagaru.. And nee maatallo chaaala baaga cheppavu Sree.

Is an idea/thought as potent as implementing it? Aalochanalaki akshara roopam ivvatam entha kashtamaina pano, aacharinchatam antha kanna kashtam kada.. but it is a first step and we should all take baby steps, lest we fall back and wonder why oh why we go headlong into implementing without giving a second thought. Ekkuva digress ayyanu.. sorry! Kudos to your expression Sree..

Sandhya said...

Sree,

'Nirvedam' anna word Pratighatana movie lo "Ee duryodhana...." song lo vinipistundi..'maatru hrudaya nirvedam.." ani. Alaa meeku aa padam gurtonchindemo. My guess ante.

Recently, I attended a talk on leadership. Akkada trainer cheppinda konni vishayalu naaku baaga nacchayi. Manaku telisiuntaayi ivanni, kaani implement cheyadaniki enduko jankutamu, kada? Here are few suggestions of his that I liked:

1. Focus on your strengths, not weaknesses. Do not compare your weaknesses to someoneelse's talents. You are unique and tell yourself that.
2. Difficult people enter into you life, not much to change themselves, but more to change you for your own good.
3. You do not have to worry too much about arrogant people around you. Unknown to them they dig their own grave and fall into it eventually. You do not have to lose your cool because of them.
4. Do not allow anyone to hurt you easily. Then you would be sending a message to that person that you are not affected by anyone's opinion of you.
5. There is an 'angry you' and 'calm you' in everyone. Which personality of the two you would like nurture depends on you. You feed the 'angry you' and you become a 'angry person' and you feed the calm you and you become a 'calm person'.

Regards,
Sandhya

Renuka said...

The way you expressed things are very touching sree...
i first experienced it when i lost my father, i got the call just when we were celebrating our 100th day of our married life...it made many things clear to me though the phase was very disturbing!

Sree said...

@Caps... BK's program chaala baguntundi kada.. i like the truths they bring out in normal speech..

@Sirisha.. :)... i guess most of us end up thinking this way some time or the other.

@sunitha: thank you... your comments always make my day...

Sree said...

@Sandhya... keep commenting more often, you know what naaku naa post kante mee comment meeda interest ekkuva :0.

Sandhya said...

Hi Sree,

Thank you for the compliment.

I like the honesty that reflects in your posts. Andukane mee blog regular ga visit chestanu, in fact favorites lo save chesukunnannu.

Aa trainer chepparannamaata, he was stammering a lot ata, but one famous public speaker spotted the talent in him and helped him overcome the trainer's weakness ata. It seems that this trainer froze on the stage when he had to deliver a talk to 500 audience for the first time. Oka 22 seconds paatu he just stared at the audience and the audience stared at him. He was supposed to speak on Asian culture on that day, it seems. Appudu the public speaker who had encouraged him, came up to him and said to the audience "see our speaker has so well demonstrated Asian culture. Without speaking a word, he captivated your attention for 22 second. Give him a big round of applause ani". Those words took away fear from his mind and heart ata. Then the public speaker told the trainer it seems "There is a first time for everything. If you do not do it for the first time, things dont get done. Just go ahead" ani. Very inspiring anipinchind naaku.

Yes, I will try to comment more often. Just afraid that I always post long comments...ha ha...

keerthicherukuri said...

Chaalaa baaga raasavu Sushma...annitikee atheethamgaa vunte manam manushulam enduku avuthaam cheppu :)

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