I initially came to know about him through Loksatta Movement when there were these campaigns of bringing about awareness in people through ads in TV channels... that tone still rings in my ears.. LOKSATTA.. IDI MEE SATTAA and those teeny tiny ads.. these kinds of moulded my thought process in the very crucial age, in late 90s, in my teens.
What is a vote, how do we vote, what is a tendered vote, what is beurocracy and basically the fact that what we say or do has a say in our government.. Government is not God, it is not just for those elderly people. if you have a basic qualification of being 18, you can change the political picture..such basic information was given to me by Loksatta, awareness in simple terminology in depth and clear knowledge and implementation and a whole lot more.
Then I got interested in politics, awareness of surroundings, governance, good governance, local self governance and a lot many things and eventually got to know the person behind it all.. JP!! and the respect has grown tremendously over years.. Just out of college, in teens, with a whole lot of ideas, an age far from being realistic and the fad of being idealistic. In spite of a sea change in thought process from that phase, JP has retained a place in my heart that only grew with time..
Then when I heard LSP was started, around 2007 at which time I was in US, I got registered in the party and was amused at the pain and efforts they took to ensure I was not sending black money for the fund and their transparency and all and then got into knowing more about it.. but some times, when I was closer to reality, when the meets were organized abroad, more than anything there came a feeling that it is just fund-raising they are interested in and also being away and not being there in person to feel and respond spontaneously did not help either. I maybe wrong but that is what is impressed upon me.
Being associated with LSP was a fashion statement, talking about JP was the IN thing and it was like just being associated with his name or party or ideals gave credibility to THEM as individuals, some desperate efforts at self promotion, JP the new feel-good factor. I have, in person, seen just very few dedicated people who actually wanted to give some thing back to the society and not just claim.. all speak, no one turns up when there is need.. then I got sucked up into my own life BUT JP still remains to be a ray of hope in this world with rapidly declining human values.
I get angry on JP a lot of times myself, feel like shaking him up hard and asking him to do something, tell him that I have so many hopes on you and you are just being diplomatic, you know everything but you just give a smile and a statement here and there.. you are not marketing yourself well dammit do it and DO IT NOW!!! Your preachings of practices are not actually working out.. when you start speaking there are times when I dont even understand the terminology, please get down to the common man's speech, communicate in simple language be it English or Telugu. Be practical, guide us practically.. there is so much of energy in youth to be tapped if you set your thought at it, do it more often. Even if I want to get a residence certificate I need to run around offices for weeks together for a genuine certificate without shelling out a paisa.. what the hell are you doing, wake up JP??? But then again, I realize it is like I am getting angry at myself.. what can a sole warrior do.. yes, he is being diplomatic times and that irks me but when I look at what he does in his small tiny way, he is clearing up the mountains of mess each step at a time on his path and I am expecting a clear ground miles and miles away from his sight and capability.
The recent incident of manhandling JP, no earth did not shake, I did not feel anything to be honest.. Instant reaction was in fact, well he deserves this for not being aggressive. In his own words.. THE SILENCE OF GOOD MEN IS MORE DANGEROUS THAN BRUTALITY OF BAD MEN..rang in my ears. To be really honest, at some point I worried that he was turning a politician and not the leader I envisioned him to be but then after the instant reaction phase wears off, I think and re-think and can only feel pity for ourselves. It in not insult to JP, he will emerge as a better person through it all but it is in fact an insult to me, an insult to a common man who has the guts to say some thing.
It is the naked truth about true state of affairs, unsure if it is anarchy or what?? Scary to know that when an elected representative and a head of the state have to hesitate to speak and are manhandled in the place where the bills and laws to govern the entire state are formulated, amidst of full security, what about anywhere else.. how can one dare to open the mouth.. does he struggle for his survival or the survival of justice/law in a law-less land??? We happen to be in a rapidly degenerating society and that is proven time and again when the elected representatives are abused in public. By hook or by crook, once they are elected they are our elected representatives, we give them the power to do whatever with our lives, we ourselves hand them over a stick to beat us black and blue.
I like JP as a leader, guess it will take time for me to see him as politician or maybe he is in the adjusting phase as well.. not sure, cant say!! JP as a person will always remain an inspiration, someone I would love the kid to turn out as when she grows up.
Nenu jarigindaanni khanda khandaalugaa khandinchestunnanu, dukkhinchestunnaanu, kottinodi chetulu kaallu virigiponu, tittinodi noru padiponu, veelakidem poyekaalam, idi mana raashtra dourbhaagyam laanti pedda pedda maatalu ananu. My total reaction to the event over all is that I need to be more conscientious and socially aware and responsible citizen who needs to vote and make sure that others around me vote for service oriented person and primarily not resort to amoral ways whatever small or big they are like getting things done out of turn, paying for special services, etc... especially more so with a kid to watch me over and learn from me.
Inni kaburlu cheptunnaam kada JP great, JP gem, JP adi, JP idi ani manalo enta mandi confidentgaa aayana anni changes testunna tana sonta wardlo next election gelustaaru ani. Grass roots levello work cheste, we understand the extent of corruption, the extent of favoritism, nepotism and the power of BLACK money...
CLICK HERE to see his baby steps at change.
picchi kukkallaaga siggu lekunda roadna padi kottuku chacchedi prajaaseva cheyyadaaniki maatrame, maaku indulo ara paisaa laabham ledu idantaa maa seva nirati, maa samskruti meeda maaku prema, guddu goosu anni edava cuttinglicchukuntoo aa characterlo leenamaipoyi maree jeevinchestunte road meeda laagoo lekunda tirige chinna pillodu kooda nammadu eerojullo... ayinaa sare vichitramgaa alaanti vaalle mana pratinidhulu. mari ekkada tannindo telisi kooda enduku kanta sosha tecchukovadam.
"Naakenduku.. indulo naakenti" ane mana mindset maarchukunenta varuku, mana chuttu pakkana vaallaki artham ayyelaaga cheppanantavaruku, chuttu pakkala jarige anyaayaalu choosi choodanuttu oorukunnanta varuku, mana vantuga manam elaanti krushi cheyyanappudu kaneesam manaki ilaanti sensitive issues meeda comment chese arhatha kooda undadu anedi naa personal opinion..
So, Harsha, my reaction instantly was "what else can we expect?... now, it is a revelation in itself. I just wanted to keep quiet because of the above said reason and hence no reaction for so long, but ide same question chaala mandi nannu adigaaru what do you feel now ani and more than answering anyone I feel that I should answer myself.. thanks, I would otherwise have just buried this under so many layers!!