The primary concern however was food intake, the boxes both lunch and snack came uneaten and the worst part was the kid used to cry and vomit her breakfast.. sick feeling seeing the kid the way she became in just a matter of week, clingy, cranky.. singing I do not want to go to school every single day.. I should have listened to my gut feeling, got her out the first day, I realized it was a mistake, which was the moment I got her to the class... NO...!! FOR ONCE, I decide to stick to my mother's expert opinion and curse myself for having done so. My precious child suffered like anything for 2 full weeks before I decide to put an end to it... totally entirely completely my fault.. I should have listened to her.
Now, we found another school, kind of a mixed playschool where she gets to play, individual attention with just 20 kids, no forced learning, eating on her own, reciting happily what she learns, playing with other children and most essentially looking forward to go to school.. THANK GOD!!! the ordeal is over!
I consider myself a most nonfussy parent, not forcing her to learn, just play and learn and enjoy every moment but just be happy with whatever she does but obviously I expect too much from the kid.. being happy. I expect her to be happy but I do not see the signs, expect her to be happy despite of my mistakes, expect her to be happy not learning when she was actually bored about not learning anything new. She wants to learn and I SHOULD provide her what she needs to be happy rather than just expect her to be happy and blame her for not being so when there is absolutely no pressure.. I had been forcing her to be happy :(((.. I am not sure if I put it right but words are failing me.
Mom knows the best is true to an extent but kids actually know what is best for them in their own way, just look at the signs and make them comfortable and happiness would just follow..
Sorry little one to put you through this.. forgive mamma!!!! Look at my ego, I am even scared to admit that to you because deep down I have a feeling you would take it as my weakness and play me to suit your needs... I need to go a loooooooooong way in parenting...!!