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May 15, 2014

antaraantaraalu..

okappudu manasulo edo cheyyaalani tapana, manishigaa puttinanduku mana baadhyata manam nirvartinchaali ane oka korika, bratakadam kaadu jeevinchaali anukshanam ane balamaina nammakam... ivanni kalipite nenu, ivi leni naadu naaku astitvam ledu anukunedaanni.  Ippudu edo teliyani nissaaram, poddunna legiste, avakaasam dorikite laptop, cinemalu, serials... enduku??  kaaranam alochinchaali ante kooda medaduki padunu pettaali adi kooda naaku ishtam ledu mari..

oka pandanti bidda, oka kotta chiguru, nenu oopiri posi, netturu panchi kanna pasidi... daanni penchi pedda cheyyaali anna badhyata, jeevitam alaa sukhamgaa saagipoka enduku ee vairaagyam, emi pattani niraasaktata??

manasuki nilakada ledu.. nijamlo bratakadam ishtam ledu, pettukuntene kadaa pegu bandhamaina inke bandhamaina, alochiste teerani samasyala sudigundamlo irukkupovadam avasaramaa??  aa tera meeda kanipinche bommala kadhalu, vaari jeevitaalu, aa kalpanallo bratikeste sagam godavalundavu kada?  nenilaa kooda alochistaana, alochinche ee saalegootlo chikkukunnaana, chikkukunnaaka ee kaaranaalu vetukutunnaana...ee antarjaalapu maaya jaalam mingesedaaka enduku tecchukunnaanu.. evari meeda ee kasi, kopam.

soonyamloki choostoo, anavasara vishayaala gurinchi alochistoo, avasaram aina panulu munduku jaripestoo, alaa alaa alaa rojantaa gadipestoo... idi nenenaa??

 addamlo moham choosukunte evaro gurtu teliyananni maarpulo ontlo roju rojuki perigipotunna kovvu nilavalu, vaatini choosi moham chitlinchukuni, naalika tippesukuni aa astamaanoo addam mundare untaamenti, choosevaadi kharma, manaki kanipinchadugaa anesukuni sardukupovadam...jeevitamlo chinna chinna vishayaallo aanandam vetukkune nenu kevalam tindilo aatmasantosham pondadam, vidhi vaipareetyama naa paityamaa... enta tinnaa inkonchem tinaalemo ani benga, endulo ekkuva kovvu unte adi m aatrame jihvaki atyabtudamgaa undatam, deenikantatiki muddugaa "depression" ani peru pettukuni, naa meeda nene jaalipadesi inkonchem tinesi, inkaasini cinemaalu choosi tongodam...idi kooda nenena??

pustakam chaduvutoo prapanchaanni marchipoye nenenaa, adi pakkanunnaa choosi choodanattundatam, chadavatam modalu pettagaane, abbo tv aite pani chesukuntoo chooducche ee pustakam valla kaadabba ani moolana padeyyadam... paatalu vintu gaallo telipotoo, aa sangeetam manasuni doodipinjelaa maarustoo, aa saahityam manasuki prasaantata kalpistoo unte sarvam marchipoyi prakrutilo leenam aipovadam... alaa chesi ennaallayyindoo...

manushulato maatladatam, vividha praantaala, bhashala vaallu, vaari vaari jeevana sravanthilo telutunte choostoo asvaadinchadam, oka jana pravaahamlo anaamikalaa andarini choostu, parisaraalanu gamanistoo, nannu nenu marchipoyi, vaari santoshamlo aanandam, vaari vichaaramlo baadha rakarakaala anubhootulu kalabosukuntoo unde nenenaa eppudu vacchinavaadu pote naa maanaana nenu naa lokamlo undocchu anukuntondi..

pasi biddala bosi navvulu, vaari chinnari chetulu, chitti potti baatalu, maatalu, veetini minchina aanandam swargam kaani marokati undedaa asalu, marippudu, kaneesam aa chirunavvulu choodataaniki okka kshanam kooda aagatlede??

manasuna manasai todorokarundina ade bhaagyamu ani enno kalalu kantoo, avi taarumaaraite tiragabadi maree jeevitamlo astitvaanni nilupukunna nenenaa ee roju anni baagunnaa edo asantruptilo kottumittadutondi...uvvettuna leche kerataaniki edurelle manastatvam alaa stabdamgaa enduku maaripoyindi??

chuttupakkala chinna vayasulone cancer bhaarina padi praanalu kolpeyevaallu, daanito poraade endarendarino choostoo, inkaa arogyam subbaramgaa undi kooda enduku ee niraasa nispruhalu...

poraadi poraadi alisipoyina manasuki sareeraaniki visraantiniste tirigi punjukovaali kaani ilaa maree deela padipotonde... potta kootiki pani chesukuntoo, rekkaadite kaani dokkaadani rojulu maaraayi ani santoshinchaalo, panilo, krushilo unde amrutaanandaanni kolpoyinanduku dukkhinchaalo artham kaavatledem??

satosham, kopam, dukkham, enduku eppudostaayo teliyadam lede?

when I look at myself and say I am a survivor.. what is the use of survival in life without a purpose or a reason...

antaraantaraallo, ekkado gunde porallo enno alochanalu, prasnalu, edo raayaali, edo cheyyaali... ee moduvaarutunna jeevitaaniki oka paramaardham kanukkovaali... aa raayi, rappa, nenu anni okate, ave merugu nenendu tindi dandaga ane alochana sarali ninchi bayataki raavaali... edokati cheyyaali... entadi?? evaro chepte chesedi kaadu, ilaage manasu porallonchi raavaali... aluperugani alochanalani cheelchukuni daari kanipistundi okanaatiki... aasa undi, swasa undi, astramundi, sastramundi.... eppudu oppukovadduraa otami ani nidralepe Sirivennala saahityamundi...

maaraali, maarataanu, maari choopistaanu, evariko kaadu... naake!! There is nothing really left to prove to anyone other than myself...



1 comment:

Bandlamudi VenkatSandeep said...

mee writings bagunnai andi...
some words makes the post read more...

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